Maybe those things in my past(I am talking about my lovelife) has affected my present. Oh, but how could I forget? That pastis past but it is the part of your present. I really believe in that. And mind you, that is my own saying.
Well, maybe I am turned to be this flirt because of my past. Oh, c'mon. First, I was talking about Archie who i thought I love dearly but turns out that maybe it is just an infatuation. First, Archie, who didn't regard my affection for him as a serious one and only thinks of me as a..what? A toy? Oh, to hell with him. And so as Geoff. I thought he really loves me and was only waiting for the right time, but now, I realized that you can't wait for the right time because the right time is everytime you are ready. Oh, how idiot I am. And maybe because of the tauntings of other people about me having no lovelife maybe thats why I am turning to be illusionada and whatever.
And now, to my realy problem. I am flirting again. And to Gio. Oh well, I don't know if I am just illusioning but I can feel it and I can see it that he is always watching me. Like last friday. I saw him watching me as I went to the stairs and he always does that. And also a while ago. I just came from a spree when I arrived with my friends and we were laughing and evetything when I saw him and he really..stared is the right word, see. He does. Does that mean he has some feelings for me?oh I would love to only i would be cautious in approaching flirting this time.
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Saturday, October 20, 2007
Big Girls Don't Cry; As Big Boys Often Lie
Come on!! I have learned enough! And I hate to say, more than intended to. I can see that I cannot totally have one to trust in this damnated world. Begone! HUh..First: About Geoff. How distorting of him, to have another girl behind my back. Oh, not that we are officially on, and right, I have told everyone who read my blog(so as my self) that I had nothing to do with him and I really MEAN it. I have alreday done it, trying to avoid him and never faling into his traps again. But then, it just hurts when I came unto the knowledge that he is flirting another grl as he tried to still flirt me. How conspicuos of him. I loathed him now. But there's no whay letting out of him since we are classmates of afew subjects. All I have to do is try avoid him( as if I can) and wait for the end of the class by next year and I won't see much of his displeasing face. Or maybe I could get a boyfriend so that myself would heal. But all in all, big girls DO don't cry.
Second: My new crush, Gio. Well, He is older than me by a year or two, come to think of it. He is handsome, and what caught my interest to him is that he looks like my model crush, thats why. And oh no, don't think of him as just a pretty-boy next door. He is also intelligent as he was taking Engineering with his lowest grade yet to be 84%. Isn't that smooth? But then, he is giving me this fool's thinking that he has a crush on me because whenever we met, he always says "Hi" that seems so odd because I think he doesn't know me, or am I that popular in te dormitory? And I don't know him that well, too. And he seems to always look at me, even if he thought I am not looking.
Hush. Third: Jewell. My bestfriend has a crush on him, and I believe he has a crush on me. Maybe. Because of his gestures and now, I don't wanna hurt my friend but he keeps on coming to me, having those cozy lectures he's got from me and others were starting to think he LIKES me. Oh..But I just can't do anything about that. Besides, its not confirmed that he likes me.
Fourth: Joseph. I was furious about him, don't you know that? He defeated me, as what he said. In our latest examination in Mathematics, I got two mistakes while he got only ONE mistake. How dare him. He ruined my papers with the proffessor, but come hell or heavens i will surely beat him next exam, no matter what. And he is flirting me. Huh...
Fifth: That guy I met at the Interbranch. No no no. The guy who took the first place where I seconded. I can't take him off my mind. Maybe because he is too intelligent and I am ignorant to a too intelligent boy, seeing tat the other day, my boy buds and classmates were amazed that I have read the Harry Potter 6. Oh, I have no time understanding sub-species, you know. Come to think of it.
Anyway, I am not saying in this article that boys are liars, its just, I was trying to point out that boys are a real ache to the girl's heads.
Second: My new crush, Gio. Well, He is older than me by a year or two, come to think of it. He is handsome, and what caught my interest to him is that he looks like my model crush, thats why. And oh no, don't think of him as just a pretty-boy next door. He is also intelligent as he was taking Engineering with his lowest grade yet to be 84%. Isn't that smooth? But then, he is giving me this fool's thinking that he has a crush on me because whenever we met, he always says "Hi" that seems so odd because I think he doesn't know me, or am I that popular in te dormitory? And I don't know him that well, too. And he seems to always look at me, even if he thought I am not looking.
Hush. Third: Jewell. My bestfriend has a crush on him, and I believe he has a crush on me. Maybe. Because of his gestures and now, I don't wanna hurt my friend but he keeps on coming to me, having those cozy lectures he's got from me and others were starting to think he LIKES me. Oh..But I just can't do anything about that. Besides, its not confirmed that he likes me.
Fourth: Joseph. I was furious about him, don't you know that? He defeated me, as what he said. In our latest examination in Mathematics, I got two mistakes while he got only ONE mistake. How dare him. He ruined my papers with the proffessor, but come hell or heavens i will surely beat him next exam, no matter what. And he is flirting me. Huh...
Fifth: That guy I met at the Interbranch. No no no. The guy who took the first place where I seconded. I can't take him off my mind. Maybe because he is too intelligent and I am ignorant to a too intelligent boy, seeing tat the other day, my boy buds and classmates were amazed that I have read the Harry Potter 6. Oh, I have no time understanding sub-species, you know. Come to think of it.
Anyway, I am not saying in this article that boys are liars, its just, I was trying to point out that boys are a real ache to the girl's heads.
My, My, My
Oh..DISGUSTING, if there is no other word for it!! I hate my cousin, I hate my aunts who favored her, and so as my uncle who took their side as if he doesn't know what they REALLY are. Now, come to think of it, I don't dislike them nor hate them, I DESPISE them. I LOATHED them!!! How could they? When only I was just a little of advantage for them because I am smart, and not a frilly-looking girl who possessed- unlike them- a sophistication they can never outmaneuver on me even if they tried? Oh c'mon! For Pete's sake!!!
What am I, really? Why would my near-of-age relatives would hate me, or despise me whereas there's nothing I did do to them. And they think of me as a selfish brat. Come to think of it,when I was doing things that I thought would make my family happy. How could they? Oh well... For all the damnation world would care!
And you know what guys? I was livid when they were insinuating that I am using or taking their things WITHOUT permission. How dare they suggest that absurdity? And since my roommates were now on my cousin's side, they were making my life a hell!! Because all they can see is that cousin of mine being an angel and me a devil! And right this moment, I don't wanna be their roommates thats why I was deciding if I would transfer to another room dormitory next semster seeing this s now a semestral break But.. I can't afford to much trouble when I have only one year and would be gone. But..Oh!! I have already thwarted those aunts and uncle and my cousin in my family bible book and whatever might happen to me, be it good or bad, I had nothing to do with them because I had already disown them and if something bad happens to me, then they gotta be happy because they would get no load of me. But if I pull something a good luck upon me, why, they got nothing to do with me either and that they won't have any of my ever fortunes at hanbd. Huh!!! Let them go to the blasting freezing hell!
What am I, really? Why would my near-of-age relatives would hate me, or despise me whereas there's nothing I did do to them. And they think of me as a selfish brat. Come to think of it,when I was doing things that I thought would make my family happy. How could they? Oh well... For all the damnation world would care!
And you know what guys? I was livid when they were insinuating that I am using or taking their things WITHOUT permission. How dare they suggest that absurdity? And since my roommates were now on my cousin's side, they were making my life a hell!! Because all they can see is that cousin of mine being an angel and me a devil! And right this moment, I don't wanna be their roommates thats why I was deciding if I would transfer to another room dormitory next semster seeing this s now a semestral break But.. I can't afford to much trouble when I have only one year and would be gone. But..Oh!! I have already thwarted those aunts and uncle and my cousin in my family bible book and whatever might happen to me, be it good or bad, I had nothing to do with them because I had already disown them and if something bad happens to me, then they gotta be happy because they would get no load of me. But if I pull something a good luck upon me, why, they got nothing to do with me either and that they won't have any of my ever fortunes at hanbd. Huh!!! Let them go to the blasting freezing hell!
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Geoff, The Dancing Partner
Why, I mean it!! *ALL SMILES HERE* I don't know if it is coincidental or whatever, but we are of in the same group and I don't have a match so we ended up together. I don't like it though. Oh, its not only because he is not a good dancer and so do I, but also because, I am not at ease with him compared to others, see? Oh, and it is so uncomfortable, especially we have to dance by pairs and everything! I don't knmow what to do. Anyway, could you tell me what a cha cha cha is?
Sunday, October 14, 2007
All Alone In My Family World
Would you believe that? I don't know if I am the insecure or they are.. But I believe it is NOT me. I am not insecure, see? I know my weaknesses and I admit, I am insecure to THOSE people who are more intelligent than me, so why would I be insecure with my cousin? Or my nearly aged aunt and uncle? C'mon, thats fallacy!
But I can feel it. Like a girl alone in the midst of the rain, yeah I am. You know what? I think the only friends that were left for me were Joy, Jhan, and Joan. My dormmates. See, they are more concerned to me than anyone else in the world. Its like, we are compatible unlike my aunts and gay uncle who puts a grudge on me whereas I didn't do something. Or maybe I did something that didn't please them but, can we please everybody? And what is it that didn't please them? My intelligence? I think so, seeing my cousin hasn't achieved something as she was the shy type and she has brains but compared to me, it was nothing, then maybe then. Because she appeared the protagonist and me, antagonist. But its not fair. I am all alone. With my achievements and everything, still, I can;t feel someone so proud of me. Now, I am asking myself what should I do to make THEM proud of me. And for them to like me. I think no one likes me, hear it? NO ONE! Am I really not that likeable enough?Huhuhuhuhu.
I am not likeable and despite of my achievements, no one is proud of me. What should I do then? I feel all alone. How dare them leave to me like this! I hate them.
Oh. And one more thing. I really hate my cousin now. How dare her, to use my things without even asking permission to me. I know I am selfish sometimes, but then, I allow people to use my things, only and IF ONLY they ask from me. But you know what? THat cousin of mine, she is HORRIBLE! She doesn't even ask me, which is bad. She just use it as if it is hers. How dare her. But if I tell my feelings about it, her DEFENDORS would then say I am selfish. But ao what if I am, huh?
But I can feel it. Like a girl alone in the midst of the rain, yeah I am. You know what? I think the only friends that were left for me were Joy, Jhan, and Joan. My dormmates. See, they are more concerned to me than anyone else in the world. Its like, we are compatible unlike my aunts and gay uncle who puts a grudge on me whereas I didn't do something. Or maybe I did something that didn't please them but, can we please everybody? And what is it that didn't please them? My intelligence? I think so, seeing my cousin hasn't achieved something as she was the shy type and she has brains but compared to me, it was nothing, then maybe then. Because she appeared the protagonist and me, antagonist. But its not fair. I am all alone. With my achievements and everything, still, I can;t feel someone so proud of me. Now, I am asking myself what should I do to make THEM proud of me. And for them to like me. I think no one likes me, hear it? NO ONE! Am I really not that likeable enough?Huhuhuhuhu.
I am not likeable and despite of my achievements, no one is proud of me. What should I do then? I feel all alone. How dare them leave to me like this! I hate them.
Oh. And one more thing. I really hate my cousin now. How dare her, to use my things without even asking permission to me. I know I am selfish sometimes, but then, I allow people to use my things, only and IF ONLY they ask from me. But you know what? THat cousin of mine, she is HORRIBLE! She doesn't even ask me, which is bad. She just use it as if it is hers. How dare her. But if I tell my feelings about it, her DEFENDORS would then say I am selfish. But ao what if I am, huh?
Thursday, October 11, 2007
This Day Is My Day
Its interbranch already and you know, I didn't slept well the night before. I was restless and I just want to jump and jump and jump in order to take off the nervousness in me. But still, I am very nervous.Okay, so the morning came. As usual, I went to school early and I studied a bit. Hmn...But nothing came in to my mind. And then, my coaches gave me the possible questions and it relieved me from being zero.
As the contest started, I obsereved that there are only three of us, the other one coming from a small town(he is a boy) and the other came from a city too(she was a girl). All in all, there are just three contestants which means I'm gonna be the third if ever I am a goner.
And the Sci-Math Quiz officially started. For the easy round, we all got the same total score but for the average round, the other girl was down and only got 6 points while the boy and tied for 18 points. Boy, was I so elated that Im sure not to be the g0ner. For the difficult though, it was really difficult but still, I stood out to be the second so now, I have 75% discount for our next exam. Hahaha!!
And take note: that boy really made me bow to him, he is soooo smart in math and science and I like boys with brains like that. Only he is not so handsome-lloking hut he'll do fine.
I was also amused by him. Hehehe. When the quiz was finished, all we did with my teammates were eating and then, I was thirsty so I went to the water dispenser which is near him. Yes, I even don't know his name. Then, he bird-called someone and I thought he was calling his teammate before I realized that it was I whom he called. He called mne again and this time I turned to him and he smiled at me. Hahaha. And my teammates saw that and they were teasing me to him. As if! Well, he seem to be smiling to me all throughout the day. And he grinned at me when awarding came. Whatever....
Oh, so whaqt now? I think I have to go because I have to do my homework in hexrpg. No class tomorrow. So bye bye!
As the contest started, I obsereved that there are only three of us, the other one coming from a small town(he is a boy) and the other came from a city too(she was a girl). All in all, there are just three contestants which means I'm gonna be the third if ever I am a goner.
And the Sci-Math Quiz officially started. For the easy round, we all got the same total score but for the average round, the other girl was down and only got 6 points while the boy and tied for 18 points. Boy, was I so elated that Im sure not to be the g0ner. For the difficult though, it was really difficult but still, I stood out to be the second so now, I have 75% discount for our next exam. Hahaha!!
And take note: that boy really made me bow to him, he is soooo smart in math and science and I like boys with brains like that. Only he is not so handsome-lloking hut he'll do fine.
I was also amused by him. Hehehe. When the quiz was finished, all we did with my teammates were eating and then, I was thirsty so I went to the water dispenser which is near him. Yes, I even don't know his name. Then, he bird-called someone and I thought he was calling his teammate before I realized that it was I whom he called. He called mne again and this time I turned to him and he smiled at me. Hahaha. And my teammates saw that and they were teasing me to him. As if! Well, he seem to be smiling to me all throughout the day. And he grinned at me when awarding came. Whatever....
Oh, so whaqt now? I think I have to go because I have to do my homework in hexrpg. No class tomorrow. So bye bye!
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
At Last!!!
Oh, guys..AM I SO HAPPY!!! Have ust inished my exam..although, to speak honestly, I had a difficulty in Mathematics. Yah..for the irst time in my last high school year!! Gosh, If you only know. Hehe. And know what our professor said about it? I'll qoute him: "If you only know, this is the easiest exam I have given to you." Oh c'mon!!!
And Im not sure about the other subjects..so there! For all I care. Tomorrow, I got a symposium o attend and the day after tomorrow itsa already he big day. OUr quiz!!!
I am gonna faint....
And Im not sure about the other subjects..so there! For all I care. Tomorrow, I got a symposium o attend and the day after tomorrow itsa already he big day. OUr quiz!!!
I am gonna faint....
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