Now, Am I Really?

As if!! I was really disgusted, angry, furious, and anything you can name about a very strong emotion of dislike. I loathe them! They are calling me SELFISH, when they themselves were not that selfless enough to spare my things from their watching eyes! How dare them!!!
Oka, I think you have the right to know who I am talking about. My cousin, no other. My angel-like cousin who made me appear devil-like to everyone, and my sardonic insecure so-called friends that turned mtheir backs against me so that they can be fightingagainst me with..uh..HER.Well, I told you, I have read about this letter, my "friend" said toHer that I am selfish, arrogant and whatever hurtful things she may have in her mind. Okay, let me tell you, I may be selfish but that doesn't mean that they are also not. And if I am that selfish, would I not understand my parents? OUr lack of money? Because if it is fiunancial care I am looking for, I am a one goodamn hell to be the one who has the rights to ask for lots of money, because of my brain and anything. But the question is, DID I? NO. Because I don't want all to herself. Unlike her, who would just kill to have what she wanted..and what is not ought to be hers.
I think it is just normal for a certain person to not SHARE all of their belongings to someone. WEll, thats what I am. I don't like it when someone is using my bigbrush for make-up, especially if she didn't ask me to use it. And how dare that cousin of mine, she used it in front of me, without my consent. Tchah! And you know what? HER Friend said that she is pretty, so if she wants to be pretty enough, then she'll have to use make-up. Oh, I don't care how pretty will she looik, as long as she keep her hands off my make-up kit and bigbrush. But she did not. And I saw her last night, an I want to yell at her.
I love HArry Potter very much, that I have a barpin on my idOne time I had it and it broke, I really got upset. But of course, it was replaced by a new one. Know what She did? She took it on my ID WITHOUT my permission!! And who is selfish with that attitude? She only laughed when I confronted her about it.
That evil woman!!! I wanna wring her neck, you know. Appearing to be an angel whilst she is a demon herself. I hate her! I jhate it when someone is playing the angel when she is a devil, I hate it when someone's using my things without my permission, I hate it when someone's insecure with me. Of course, I knew it from the start.JUst because I got the brains and the beauty and the confidence, she would be just like that? How dare her!! I hate her for it. And oh, I forgot, I also hate imitators. Imitating what would have I done with my hair and my face, so that she could be pretty. To hell with her!!!
*DEEP SIGH*Okay..I'll calm down. Think I have to study in our exams. Oh, honestly, I don;'t care if she'll vbe prettier than me, to hell with it. Blasted idea. All I want is to be intelligent. Just want that I have brainsd while I go my way. Okay.
*SMILE*See ya! Think I have to do a litlle study. And oh, please wait for the time I introduce you well to Margaxina Noelle Rowland-Feathers/Trampp. My new baby. But I'll do it formally, sooner or later, okay?BYE!!!!...Just for now, of course, honey...

Family Day

You see, I have no family roaming around here in the city because oh of course you know.and well then, i invited my two younger sisters to come over but only my middle sister was able to go with me to school so we joined the obstacle race. Oh, im ot in mood today, you see...

Boys, Boys, Boys. *SIGH*

UHmn..Well..I just thought this is a bad day for me..Yah, right. A bit. Or shall we say, a bit more? And a bit more, rather....
So now. This is it. I'll begin at the morning 'till the afternoon. Its not what we call a bad hair day but this is one of my WORST DAYS! SOSOSOSOSO damned jinxed day..
Now, this morning I went to school pretty okay. I was a bit in the modd, and there I am, studying this Chemistry portfolio for our Interbranch. (Hope you still remember our Interbranch)> So, that's it. As usual, I am the first person to reach our room. Next is Geoff. And we were kind of alone thi moments of time again...so..well, he didn't dare speak to me, seeing that I am busy and I pretended not to notice him, I won't be the one to speak to him first anyway, if it is not that important. Don't want him to think that I was just setting for a cutsie on him. Huh.
And then, there's the first cue. At our first subject which is Physics, our teacher told me that our Literature proffessor won't be teaching us anymore, seeing that we are that bad enough for her and she can't handle us anymore. So that's it. And or adviser even cried when she remembered an accusssation to her..I also cried myself.
Second, I was being reprimanded by our language techer because she made me in charge of the photocopying of our materials and it was not my fault anyway, but my classmates, coz they didn't handle their money to me until monday morning. I was really like having most of the times cry this day.
And in our economics, I was ttouched by our teacher when she told us that she loved us. Gosh..Geeee..So touching and I cried with my other friend, too.
But this afternoon, it was such a bummer. In our Mathematics quiz, I was only 88 and our teacher in PE told us that he will give us our final grade that he will put in our report car and know what my grade is? also 88! I am damned devastated!
Oh, well..And about boys...
Geoff and i, well..its as if we are ot noticing each other though I know that he wants to talk to me, and it was just something was holding him back. OH, well, I will just wait for his move. It won't come to me, anyway. And remember Joseph??Well, well, well, I do feel or let's say, just sensed something. I really think he likes me, but I am not sure though. Oh c'mon..And I say Archie, if you remember,. the one I was so crazy about in the past? Well, just saw him, and it was nothing to me. And hey, the one i got a crush in our dormitory..!!Hehe..He greeted me again. And i don't know why. We were not even acquainted!oh, goshh... Well, Im preparing for our interbranch, lots of memorizing to do. So babye!!
"Happy es una chica preciosa"- Thats what my spanish friend told me. And my, I'm so flattered.
Anyway, just want to give you another update, I was starting again a new local novel.I don't know what's the title yet, but I think it is good.

Bad, Bad Day

It was really a bad hair day for me. Had lots of project, and I end up not making the best of it. And to think that I did swear to be a good student this second quarter. Oh, how foolish am I....
This morning, I crammed to do my project. I was a bit disheveled, to be honest. And then, I ended up making it the worst project ever...Oh, how thick am I? And then, after our morning class and I went back to dormitory, I found something.....
It was a letter, by my friend to my cousin. So, that's it. The reason why she was acting cold towards me. Cause I am selfish and Untidy and Hard-headed gal. Hah! As if I am..Oh, you should read "Jacob How I Love" And I say I would be the protagonist there..If given the chance. As if I don't listen to them if they say something. ANd do they know that I am selfless as they are?If they only knew how much sacrifice I am dping for my friends and family. HaH!As if..
And always the saint cousin of mine..But do they know what she does when they're gone?Huh!!! Whatever..
Anyway, and then, it really upset me, you know, even if I tried not to think about it. And so, at school, even if we have no classes and my classmates just talked and talked, well, I am off in a corner and just reading my book. Well, I really have to study though, for our Interbrach, that's why.
*Sigh*Oh life...

Math Quiz

Hahaha!!! For sure, (I'll keep my fingers crossed *grin*) its gonna be perfect. But I don't want to keep my hopes too high, though. Oh, and it is such a very busy week- too many projects, hehe...Yeah, have two projects for opur values, one for our language, and another for our economics so as for our Physics. Oh, gosh..such a tiring day...

What's Wrong?

Uhumn...Yeah...Think something's wrong with me. Must be cause Geoff seemed to neglect me? Or must be cause I am trying to be a rebel to Geoff's uhmn..let's say, because I thought he has another girl, well, I'm not so sure about it. Anyway, before I become too touchy-icky with that "love thing", I just want to lament about my grades... We had a quiz in our Physics and..huhuhu..I think I had made it all wrong. It's better luck next time. That's why I'll REALLY try and study our another quiza for tomorrow which is our Economics. And oh, yah..I think it is really a bad day, because our discussion didn't go well. Oh..Such a blunder, I think.
But our Mathematics went awell. Not so well, cause one of our newly discovered classmate is striking aghain, and I think I was not our teacher's favorite anymore. Oh, whatever, for all I care. As long as it is me whose going to battle for the Interbranch, everything's gonna be okay. And I have to study Algebra and Trigonometry, for Christ's sake!
Okay. About that love thing. I don't know if I really had just an ESP (Extra Sensory Power) like what my friends says, but..really, I can feel something. Uhmn...my classmate for years.. Yeah, its about Joseph and Jewell. They were both boys, okay? And they have the different story but like they had the same thought, I think.
But nononono...I think uhmn...I don't meant to be conceited but I think they both has a little affection for me((OOOOWSSSS??!!)).Yah..That's what I think, because they seem to be sweeter than any guys of the room was, or am I just paranoid?
And then there's other guy in our dormitory who keeps taunting me but hours ago, he was watching me, oh, staring is the right term and I think I was like feeling like a little liking hikm too.Ha! Come on! How about Geoff?
Something's just wrong...

Monday..Again

Oh..a veeeeryy cramming Monday for me. I went to school with an unsure assignment/project and I went to school with no assignment in physics. Oh..! Too dissappointing. And so, I end up with wrong assignments, I think. And what's more, our Language teacher seemed to be..oh, more than usual. You know, she was more meticulous than ever!
But that bad experience was ultimately covered after I have taken my snack. WEll, there's this Sci-Math Quiz for the school interbranch and we took the elimination for science last week and I was kinda daydreaming about entering it all the time and guess guys?I'm gonna be the representative for our school. Gosh!! Am I so pleased.....
I don't want to spare anything from you the detail about it. WEll in Science, I was only second and also in Math but when our teachers got our average, I was the highest, so THERE! I was in.
Gosh..It was such an honor to represent our school. Yah, right.
And what's more, Geoff was like..he asked me if I kept the flower. WEll, I didn't answer him straight., Don't want him to know that I KEPT it. Hehehe/.
Only thing that bugs me this afternoon is our P.E teacher who keeps talking about b"Byes" that i thought at first was a food. Oh c'mon!!!

End of The Week

Whew!! At last, its already the end of the week. Oh, well.. I did join an elimination contest for who to be the representative to the incoming Interbranch of the corporated schools, and i did kind of..not too well. I just laugh along with my other chosen classmates during the test. And we didn't know the result because its a sci-math and we thought it was just physics. Well, we learned the latter part at the afternoon.
And Geoff kinda noticed me, oh of course, he always does. But as I was in the library, reading about psychology, he went to me and pressed my shoulders. Oh, its a gesture for me, you see..Oh...

Flowers For Happy

Such a blasting Wedneday morning for me!! *ALL SIMLES*. It really makes me smile so wide everytime I remember the details.
Okay. This is it. Wednesday morning for our next period after snack, we were supposed to take an examination for our minor subject. Well, it was kinda postponed 'cause many of us belong to the Peer Educator's Guild (that is an organization in school that has to do with counseling) and I was not able to join the organization, so I was stuck in the room with the others. All my friends were away for the said meeting, so I just went up and went studying in our postponed exams..Then, something queer happened...
Okay, I admit, I noticed something was happening. Uhmn..It was kinda..All of the remaining boys and the other girls(except me) were in a group and they were like talking about something. Oh, I just proceed onmy studying. And then, they were seem like...all gone. And it was only me in the room.
And then, Geoff went in, and he was like..,restless. He kept pacing up and down and my boy classmates were outside, talking loudly. Oh, I was really distracted. Maybe because I know something's gonna happen.
So, as I was about to ask him what's up, he sat mext to me and asked if I accept flower. Well, I thought he was joking, so I said, Ahah..you're just kiddi8ng anyway, but then, Iits true. He seems like hesitant though, cause it needs half of the class' support so that he'll take the guts to do it for me.
What he gave is a yellow rose which meant friendship but its fine with me. I still felt happy.

At Last!

At long last, I can breathe easily now. Now that my last exams for the first quarter has already passed and done. Well, its not that simple, because for me, this is the worst exam I have taken during my last year in high school....YET. To know better about it, I'll classify it by subject.

PHYSICS

The one I thought or we, rather. The subject we thought would be the hardest for our first day of exam. I studied very hard in this subject, poring the every pages of the book but nada..Its simple. Nonononono..Its not that it is too easy but its easier than I have imagined. And gosh, how I regret that I studied hard on this subject!Oh, just joking...

LITERATURE

I love literature but literature doesn't love me. Hehehe. I hate it! 'Cause I wanna be a writer and I love reading and everything to do with the literature but no, I think I had no talent in it. Gosh...I think I'm gonne vomit..Hehehe...

VALUES

I definitely didn't open my book in this subject. And now, I remorse it. Because I thoought it would be easy, so I concentrated in our physics. So now, the Values subject turns to be the most difficult subject for me. *SIGH*.

But for the first day of the exam, I only spent 1hour and 45 minutes for three subjects. And our proctor was like, surprised. Hehehe..I rule.

LANGUAGE

Uhum!! One word for it, CONFUSING! I hate the teacher so definitely, I learned to hate the subject. But honestly, it is my favorite subject when I was younger... See how things turned out?

ECONOMICS

Haaaayyyy!! So sos sos so so so boriiiinnng....Come on. Its also a bit confusing but generally okay.

MATHEMATICS

Oh well, this is the ones I wanna say to you. It is so easy, but sometimes, if the thing is so easy, you'll miss some important point about it. And maybe that's gonna happen to me i this subject. Knock on the wood, I hope not. But really, I find it too easy. I'm keeping my fingers croos that I'll get 100 again this time. If not..well, better luck next time.

I spend only one hour for the whole exam in the second day, and to my shock, it took 30 minutes for someone to follow after me that's why I lose confidence in my answers cause I think I was just too fast. But I really hope I'll still get line of9s this exam..Please oh please...

Uhmn...Exam, Exam

Oh, how tiring it is. Not that I studied well this period of examination. I thought the teachers will let us not take examination this week, seeing as we have already taken an NCAE the past month. But well, we are! And I am not in the mood to study anything, and its gonna be our examination tomorrow! But well, after I sur the net, I promised to myself that I would study now.

Know what I did this past few hours when I was suppose to study?Oh yeah..I read a book..HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS....AGAIN.My aunts were just simply frustrated about me, always reading the said book...Hehehe. And well, I didn't just read only books, I went out for a while and washed my clothes..and *SIGH*..again, daydreming about Geoff.

Well guys, tell me how can I get him off my mind?CAuse no matter how many times I'll say, get off, Geoff, he still keeps on popping in me.Oh Come on!

Exam, exam..Such a hard thing a student has to pass. Oh, well, I promise, after this, I'll wash my things first and after that, I'll study again to be able to pass-or obtain line of 9-every subject. I really have to, or I'll be dead with myself. Hehehe. Ba-bye!

Hilary Duff

Can' believe it myself, that this si Hilary Duff. She sported a totally new look, look at her hair turned brunette, and she also wear a very shocking red lipstick. Totally a definition of wholesome change!
Uhmn...This is not Hilary of course, this is Lindsay Lohan, her known foe..But I also like her, cause she is multi-talented, anyway.

Hilary Duff's latest look that I know..She was becoming prettier and prettier everyday..like me.hahaha

When she was a bit younger here..Look at her sweet innocent face, and she was chubby at the time and she wear her extensions shorter that time.
Uhmn....I dont know who is se with..and where is she..
She is so pretty, yeah she is.

End of The Line

That's what we are now..at that picture..I think it is really the end for the two of us. Well, there's never been the two of us, anyway..But I hate thinking about it, thinking that we really are JUST friends, but to think that we had feelings for each other! Or is it only me?
But no, I think he has some feelings for me. Thing is, he is thinking that I am just too smart for him. HUller?I am that smart?Yah..I think so..Now that I think about it?So what? Maybe he hasn't dated someone yet who was so smart..Ha HA HA?REALLY?
I think he is going out with that girl now...The one I talk about, you know, the Junior.OH?For Pete's sake, for all I care! SO? I got my Jay, and he got his, and I have no rights to care about him anymore. We will just end up as friends.
But you know what?Even if he seems to have lesser time to be with me, he still, you know, hinting that he still has a feeling for me. Well, he didnt told me about leaving, but I can sense it.
And he is always saying that something has changed in my face, is it really true?He is saying that I was..Oh well, Beautiful?C'mon...But I think, now he knew that I already got a boyfriend. But well, its good that he knows.
GOODBYE, GEOFF!!!

A "HAPPY" Day

Had a very blasting day!!Fun day, but it did occured only later this day, at the afternoon 'till eve. Well, its because one of my bestfriends, Faith, treated us for her birthday which was two days ago. We had really blastin' fun with our two bestfriends...Gosh, we just laughed all night.
We went home earlier, because the other two had their curfews, but its okay, because we have our time for happiness, anyway, and we really love the feeling. I love my friends. That's all. And this is one of the most unforgettable moment I had and that I will treasure in my life....

Good-bye To The One I Love

Good-bye Geoff..Goodbye..I am alread committed to someone else, because you came so late..Because you made me wait..Its so sad for me, cause I know you also felt the same way I felt for you....Only thing is, our beliefs always oppose, and I'll never use to it. Besides, I think you had another girl in mind now..Although I sometimes see you glancing over me. I know you are trying to avoid me, and thats what made my suspicion of you having another girl now stronger and the urge to commit myself into someone I don't really love.I really love you but you think my studies were more important to me. Of course, it is, but it doesn't mean that I'll not choose you over it. You made that decision to avoid me, and it is not my fault. I only hope that you can read this, so tat you'll know how much things I have sacrificed for you and how much I LOVE YOU...

Mistaken Discovery, Way To Achieve My Dreams

This morning was just a same morning I had for these past few days.Then, some of my schoolmates was kind of setting off todaw for they had a workshop on a particular field in journalism.Well, one of my bestfriend who was a good journalist even cried because she thought she wasn't included i the workshop, until we found out that of course, she really is in.Then, I was just finishing my assignment in Physics, retouching it and everything when my friends just suddenly come up to me and said, "Hey, you're also going!"I was a bit thankful that time until I realize that I should be thankful BIG enough..Because this workshop is once in a lifetime and it is a stepping stone to my dream.
The workshop was okay, and I was assigned at the copy-reading..and i really enjoyed it. It was like mathematics you know..But its too tiring when the write-ups where coming..But of course, I am having fun with the others.Its until tomorrow!!

We Are The Champions!!!

We showed 'em!!! At our Intramurals, we may be the youngest, as we are the igh school, and we had the smallest number of population in school, but we rock!!! We won our soccer game as CHAMPION!!!HAhahaha..We rule!! We beat them. Yessss!!