What Now?

As I have promised, I would start avoiding him for the meantime. Last night, I texted him a quote that goes on like this:

Wen a certain person s stl approaching u,

wen dt person is stl talking to u,

Learn to RESPOND

Coz u might not know,

that certain person is going to avoid you 2morow...

I made that all by myself. Just trying to give him a hint. I don't know what is his reply, anyway. But then, this day, he seems to be the ONE who's avoiiding me, or am I just the one thinking about it? Pfuit... Because he even helped me with my elecrical wire problem in one subject and he is definitely talking to me. Then he just sudeenly asked if what did I meant of what I have texted last night. Said he was scared..Oh, how sweet.. But really, my decision is final, I am going to give him time.

SO IRRITATING!

I have just came from our district activity regarding our Interact club and it is so exhausting but I am having a full blast fun. I love it. I also did a little shopping and I bought books that made my money gone :(. But what's irritating is the unsensitivity of other people regarding other people's needs. Oh c'mon, why do they do that? I HATE THEM. They are sucker. Huh! C'mon, I wanna scratch them and torn them into pieces.

The Decision I Made

It hurts when the person you have already admitted that you loved seems to only second-prioritize you. Yah, I am passing through that ordeal now and I can't take it. After pondering many hours about it, asking for my friend's advices and everything, I came up with my own decision. I think this is not selfishness, despite, I am showing great love for I'll never claim it all to myself.
For the meantime, I am going to avoid him. Many will call me and IDIOT after they'll know this, but I stand up to it. I have to give him time to think and to ponder things. I won't confuse Geoff. But also, I wont let him know that it is the reason why I am avoiding him. Even if it hurts, I really have to know who he really loved.
I maybe selfish all the time but not now. I can't stand to confuse somebody at my own expense so better avoid first and know what will happen next.

Heartbreaking Story of Mine

Before I tell you the story, I just want to announce to the world that we won our jingle contest by being second place! That's saying much, because our batch hadn't won more than third place for the past years. Geoff joined the cookfest contest, and sad to say, the former champion became only first runner up. Well, there are lots of dissappointment from us, anyway.

And now, for my heart-breaking story. Tell you what, people, I am really confused. Things between Geoff and me are getting serious, as what I have observed, and what my classmates observed. And I am confused about my feelings. Its like I wanted it to be serious but I don't want to. Oh guys, please help me..okay..i'll list the things, the should and shouldn't go about our very complicated relationship..

Why I should go on...

1. I like him, or love him rather.
2. My friends approved him.
3. He also likes me and said he is serious to me.
4. We were already friends when it all happened.
5. He cares for me.
6. People around us told us we are COMPATIBLE.

Why shan't I go on...

1. He still seem brooding over his ex.
2. Teachers may not approve it. (we had restrictions in school)
3. I'm not sure on what he feels about me.
4. and what is the other?i don't know....

So tell me, should I go on, or not?

PERFECT!

I am so horrified when we got a Mathematics quiz. I thought I failed because thats what the checker said. But luckily, I got a perfect 100.

That's how I value my education, it is more important than anything else in the world.

So "Happy" Day

I was really wondering this Tuesday and Wednesday that Geoff seems to doesn't want to talk to me. Oh, well, he really does, anyway, but I think there is something wrong, like, he doesn't do it often. Then, this day, he told me he is not in the mood(he told me that this morning) and he won't tell me why.
But then, this afternoon, we talked and he seem to be with himself again. We talked lots of stuff, anyway. Then, what confuses me is what my classmate/friend told me. He asked (my classmate) some funny questions, but of course, I was willing to answer. Then, Geoff told me not to believe in what Bern was saying. Then, Bern asked me this funny little things like one of our classmates courting me when we were freshmen, oh c'mon. Hahaha.. Geoff seems jealous, he said, if he only knew it earlier, he might punch the one who courted me. Well, it was a bit touching...and sweet...
I also told Geoff, or shall we say, I let him feel that I am a bit jealousof the Junior Girl who has been "linked" to him, because according to my other friend(whom Geoff saidis her judgement cannot be trusted) Geoff has a crush on that girl. But he just said, "What if I make that true?Would you be happy?" I just hope he will not, or else, I'll kill him. Hehehe

Issues

Yah..like we're some sort of celebrities. Anyway, I am, in our school. Hehehe. Lately, I realized that the Geoff-Happy tandem has been popular. Why? I don't know why. Well, yes, almost everyone were pestering me about it. Just this morning for example. They don't really believe that he hasn't even courted me yet! All they want to believe is that there's "us". Oh, of course, don't count those who knew me too well...

And Geoff seems like he also like it. Eww...Whatever..I just hope he'll court me but I don't want also to arrive into that stage because I am afraid of our mentors. Gosh, what if they won't like me anymore?It matters!And you know what, we get all the teases from everyone, it's us, the cenetr of attention today. Like my classmates were the papparazzi. I hate them. They always notices something about me that doesn't need noticing too. Oh, c'mon cut the crap.

I am so excited about reading the Harry Potter and all, by the way. Anyway, I might bug Mum about it.

Harry Potter and The Order Of The Phoenix

The show is very GGGOOOOODDD!! But I was still devastated and horrified. What the heck are they playing at, allowing Dan and Katie to snog each other. Ewww...and to think that it lasted off five minutes. I hate it. Yuck ew..But still, I like the movie all in all although not that kissing scene part. I really hate it and I wanna cry if I remember it. Whatever...HUh....

Love is in the Air

What? Well, last time, I think I have already admitted that I love Geoff. Yes, I am now sure that I love him. But i don't know whta does he feel on his part. Maybe yes, maybe no. He doesn't want it when I flirt with other guys. And he always come to me. You know, he made me feel like a princess....
Last night, with some of my close classmates, I went to one of my classmate's house because it was her birthday. But before we went to her house, the others were bugging me about Geoff and I. And I told them the truth: that he isn't courting me, but it seems like, because he has already told me and that we are having a muttual relationship. That's all, right? KNOw what, our relationship is a bit complicated. Yeah..But then, I told him about that and he said, "why didn't you told them that we are already on?" HULLER?! Come on, lucky him if I do that. Then, our classmate really asked him and he just said "no comment". He seem doesn't want to answer it. He even asked me what to answer. Oh c'mon , I nearly said, you are the GUY. Sigh! Such pain in the neck. I wonder why my classmates' so tickled about it, they screamed like mad when I told them the story. Oh c'mon..like we were in movie..
But you know what? I was very pleased and glad that he is concerned. I kid him last night(through text, of course) that I will go home riding in a single motor. He reacted that I shan't, or else. He said I have to text him if i went home safely...EEEEEEE...
Oh, i think I have to say goodbye because I need to go to another place. Have to watch the Harry Potter movie. Bye!

Whatever!!!

Favorite expression of the year. Well, that's for me anyway. Of course, I am here because I have another story to tell again, as usual. Well, I wanted to talk about my grades first. Gosh..it is so horrible.
Okay, in english we had a quiz and you know what? I got only 79!! SO horrible. ANd we had a group work in English, you know what? We got only 85!!!Gosh..so embarassing..and horrible.
Next: Geoff. Well, if my grades in english were not blooming, at least my lovelife is. HE confessed last night that he wanted me to e his girlfriend although it is not the right time. Well, it seems like we really are, seeing that we have mutual understanding. Whatever. What really felt me great is that he became jealous whenever someone's linked to me. For instance, a dear old friend who courted me years ago. Well, he doesn't seem to realize it (Geoff) but he is really obvious that he was jealous. And in our dance class, we didn't became partners, and instead, my partner was one of my pesky classmate who call me "bestfriend". Then, our other classmates teased us, and he reacted, "they are not perfect combination." Gosh, you can imagine how red in te face I am a while ago.
He also didn't want me to get hurt. I think he is really trying hard enough to avoid on commenting and looking on beautiful girls and I love him more for that. Yes, I admit, I am now inlove...
Anyway, before I forgot, there was an elimination for a city contest and unluckily, I was only top 2 which means I am just an understudy but its okay...

Happy is HAPPY!!

Okay, this Monday, I really thought he was REALLY mad at me. Oh, I am over things again. Before Monday (so it was Sunday) I have already concluded that he wasn't angry (or a bit) when my aunt told me that he texted and texted and texted me, only, I wasn't there. So, there...There was just a little hesitations on me on Monday. And then, as usual, I was the first to come into scholl and then,...he was next. We seems like, you know, very far from each other and to think that he approached me. But anyway, after that, we talked. Then he told me that he had already break up his girlfriend. Well, it made me feel guilty fot a while but...I dunno. I dont want others to suffer in my expense. He told me that he wanted to avoid me now because maybe he was just a disturbance to me. I said in a grudging tone, "FINE" but then he said, "Yes, I wanted to do it for the sake of you, only, I REALLY CAN'T DO it no matter how hard i try." See? This made me happy even more. Well, I haven't had any plans for now, I just want to go on with the flow. Whatever. Anyway, he wanted me to be good on my studies so there's no problem right? And anyway, we are just having a mutual understanding, so what? Hahahaha...
There's also one thing that made me tickle. He really cares for me. yah..he doesn't want me to get angry. Hnmmmm...I think he really should do that. Well, he told me he won't be connected with girls anymore, cliche. I am happy about it. Well, he and his friends were still drooling about those girls but he always stops when he know I'm around. He definitely said, "I don't want someone to be angry." WEll, you should be.
And one thing. Okay folks, don't worry, this will be the last. I just want to tell it, whatever and no matter what. Well, hours ago, my classmate and I were talking about the Girl Scout activity and then, my classmate just suddenly said, "Happy would just go there and flirt with boys," into which he replied fastly, "Don't you dare..I'll wring that someone's neck." HAhahaha..Anyway, I am also happy because all of my exams were all line of 9.
BYE!

One Week With Geoff

Okay, I have been finished talking about my studies..Then it is time to peek into my lovelife.I am already finished with that Geoff-knew-my-feelings-already dilemma, huh? So guys, find out what happened as the days goes by.....
Friday morning and afternoon, we didn't talked that much(that was last Friday) but on Monday, we seem to regain our very own selves again, and we started talking like nothing happened, although this time, it was a bit, you know, fishy. Some of our classmates noticed that something was happening between us, but before that..I was wondering why his friends knew about it. Does it mean that he told them about our affair?Whatever..
And then, after that, we talked regularly and he was like, always telling me that I am important in his life. That I brought him happiness and etc. Well, he also told me that he really is serious on me but hey wait, no courting has happened since he has his girlfriend. And that makes me guilty sometimes when we were together.
It was like we are having a mutual understanding. Well it is, isn't it? He knows what I feel, and I know what he feel. But then, Friday morning, something happened...
You know, Vendella(remember her?) and I are groupmates in Physics and afetr our activity, out of boredom, we hang together. Then, she told me that Geoof told her that he has a crush on her. And then, one of my friends said that Geoof was confused and was torn between us: his gf, Vendella and me.
It hurts. It was like I was betrayed. He told me he was not a playboy anymore, but why has he done this? I confronted him through cellphone, told him that he has to avoid me top give him time to think over stuffs. He seems like angry to me, he said I was accusing him playboy. Is he not? Come on.
But to tell you honestly, all I want is for him to chose between us..that's all. Oh gosh, my one week lovelife. But you know what? I was thinking that maybe I should follow our teacher's advice: STUDY FIRST.
I don't know what to do tomorrow...

The First Exam

Okay guys..This is it..The report for our first ever examination in being a graduating student.
ENGLISH
During the exam, I don't think I have done well in this subject seeing that I am a bit poor in that language especially if we talk about gerunds, past and present tense, whatever..Oh c'mon. Cut it oof. I nearly fainted when our teacher announced our score. But luckily, I scraped 96 and I am second to the gighest. Whew! Thank God!!
PHYSICS
Definitely difficult! Gosh..If you only knew how much of an ordeal to me was to solve nubers without calculator and I am really confused with the significant figure thing...Forget about it. But anyway, in our partial scoring, I still belong to the Top 5, although I don't know what number exactly I am. I just hope it will be line of 9.
OWN LANGUAGE
I don't know if I managed to scrape something in that subject, seeing that no matter how easy it is, I still hate the teacher..Huh..Come what may...
ECONOMICS
Hahaha!The most easy one..Even if I don't listen to our teacher, still, all you needed to do was to memorize Marx, and whoever they are..Well, I managed a 99, next to our very smart classmate. Or shall I say, we are both 99?
MATHEMATICS
Most favorite subject!!But still, I don't know at first something that later on I realized was the most easiest part..Gosh.. I am only 96..and to think that it is too easy. I am expecting a 99 or 100 but what can I do? Its only an expectation..Poor brain..Better luck next time..

But all in all, everything was okay, I didn't fail, I think I passed all.. and thank God for that.

Impertinent Witches

Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows coming out this July and also the movie, Order of The Phoenix!! Anyway, I am not going to talk about them..yet...
I want to talk about this impertinent cousin of mine and my two roomates. Huh! As if I don't know anything. Not to be that conceited but I know they were jealous to me and insecure about what I have and what they don'tand about what I dont, that they do have. Huh! Just a lot of litter in the soil!
Now, they're acting and showing to my face that they don't like me anymore. They ignore me and talk to me in a very grudging way..well, as if I care. And then, now, I really hate them..but well, lets see who cant' stand the battle. HUH!
Anyway, its our exams tomorrow and I have to study now. Wish me luck, guys.

Revelation

Gosh, a very BIG horrible GOSH!!! I wanna scream. I am running anywhere..I don't know what to do! GOSHHHHHHHH!!!
Okay, I'll calm down. Here it is... The BIG news.. for me. Guys, you know about Geoff, and everything and I know that he already knew that I've got a crush on him. But wait, wait, wait, thats not what matters. It is about we have talked about this past few days...
This week, I swap for another network's simcard. Then, Geoff's network and mine are now the same and thus, if we text each other, it will going to be discounted. Monday and Tuesday, we texted. He sent me love quotes, you know, as if he really wants to tell me something. By Wednesday, he got sick and he was absent from the class until Friday. But at Thursday afternoon, we texted again and here is our texts ((although not quoted very well))

G: Hello Happy, How's ur luvlyf?

H: Fine. Just crushing on someone.

G: Really? May i know hu is it?

H: Sorry, but i am not going to tel u.

G: Oh, fine. I know you can't trust me. Anyway, do u have a bf this days?

H: Nope. the perfect man hasn't come yet.

G: Oh, i see. well, i have to ask u something..wat do u think of me?

H: oh, u r a one mean playboy, Geoff. But youre a gentleman at the same
time.

G: I am not now, Happy. Promise, whether you believe it or not..

H: Ows?

G: yah, swear. anyway, wat type of guy do u like?

H: Well, anyone. But u know wat, u r all the same. superior and
conceited.

G: happy, if i have no girlfriend and i'll court you, would you accept
me..even if you say i am conceited.?

H: hey, i didnt call you conceited! All i want to find is a guy like Mik(our
classmate) who remains loyal to his gf, no matter what.

G: Oh..ok. you proved something to me..

And you know what he told me after it? THAT HE LIKES ME! Well, i admitted it too and now, whenever we see each other at classes, we became uncomfortable, but still, we are talking. its just like we have mutual understanding, you know...gosh... I am really horrified. But my clasmtes and friends has passed me information regarding him. He has been talking to his guy friends about me, no wonder almost all of them knew about it... GOSH...so embarassing!