Chop Chop Chop

Uhumn. Glad it is already end of the month, October and gald it is already Halloween, or in much formal words, All Saint's Day. AT LAAAAAAAAST! And the best part? I have time to spend my vacation not in our dormitory but in my own humble abode. Oh, at last at last and at last. I am so lucky, you see. Our adviser for the school paper, miracurously, has allowed us just to do the article in our vacation and will just check it at the back of school. Isn't that great? I LOVE it!

This day, we went to a certain area a bit faraway from the city and we did tree planting there. I planted onetree there called..uhmn..what is it again..ahh, yes, a tree called Dao. WHat is that anyway? Haha. I dont even know. But then, at least my friend helped me planted it because you see, I have a fear on earthworms and it is so disgusting that when I began to dig the soil, I saw an earthworm wriggling tis body. EWWWWW...!
So thats it. And oh. About Geoof. I don't know what I am feeling about him but I know that this is..not love. Definitely and precisely. Uhuh..I am not tryingto hide my feelings but then, well, it is not love. I believe I am already over him. You know what? Whenever I am near him or imagined to be near him, its like there is..a chill going down inside me. Have you ever experienced something like that? Gosh..Its like, I totally went icky whenever he is near me. Can anyone explain to mre why that happens so?
AND ANOTHER THING:About Jewel. Gosh..A fallacy!! See? My friend is so very smitten to him and I like him too, before my bestfriend revealed that he is smitten to him. Oh, God..now what would I do? Mon Dieu!!! What am I gonna do? No one knows about it, and I am just hoping against hope that my liking on Jewel will just cease. But nonono, I think..Oh, well, I am telling you, I am hoping. Because I like him insome unfounded reasons. Oh, whatever. Anyway, I am currently listening to a HSM2 music. I am feeling Sharpay like now. Hahaha. And- HEY! I just saw Ratatouille and its great!! Anyone can cook!!!

Whew!!!

Why? Why? Why?
Why in the world did it happened? To some unfounded reasons, I can't log in to www.hexrpg.com. Gosh, that IS so revolting. Yeah. I can't log in for what?.. Almost a week now. Now, tell me what happened. I cannot log in, when I am in desperation to want to log in. Oh, c'mon.. I really wanna log in because I have many unleft role-plays that needs replying. And, oh, what if I will be left by my co-writers? But really, i realize, it is a bit childish. Hehehe....

Well, now, to more serious topics. Uhmn.,.About Halloween first. Oh...I haven't any ideas if I will get the chance to celebrate it with my family this year. Last year, I haven't made it with them because I am very busy reviewing for Mathematics quiz so I am in the dormitory all alone and no one with. But now, maybe it will be another story. Really, i would really love to celebrate it with my family, if you only know. I don't wanna be alone in that day. It is soooo creepy. Hehehe
And you know what? One thing: I am so-so flabbergasted! Well, do you still remember that nice couple we have in school? I am so..oh gosh, they are so-dead! HUH! Well, the guy asked me to write some speech for him for that certain program in their club and I told him, ask your girlfriend but she decline so so I made one for him but then, after all the hard work I put to it, I was only insulted by the girl. Gosh, she is so dead with me. HUH!

Non Pas

Oh, what??!!Whatever..I dunno.. SIGHHH... Okay, I'll tell you the bad news about the Journalism. Huhuhuhuhu..I didn't even made it even to the top 7!! And what's more, I am super busy because of it that I have no chance to make my assignment and projects. Such a shame to the people aroound the world(what?).
Forget about that horrid thing. Oh, whatever. Sharp, sharp, sharp. Hahahaha.. Well, I dont wanna remember about it...so..TRANSPOSE!!!!
Well, well..Looks like I am becoming a bit more like Sharpay. If you watch High School Musical. Yes, Sharpay Evans, i love that character. Real catty and so evil though I swear I am NOT evil in real life. MAybe a little bit. Hehehe.

No Chance

Okay, Okay, Okay. I am The Copy-Reader. The so-called perfectionist. But you know what? I felt horrible this day. SO terrifying, if you only know. All I did this day is sigh and sigh and sigh. Now, I am gonna tell you about the contest proper. Whew..I thought I know everything, but you see, we got no training, so- MAN! Was I so thankful that they got us briefed before the contest begun. So, I knew some tricks although not all. And, gosh..even if I knew some tricks, it is still no use, because, I violated one of the VERY first law in copy-reading, and that is, I for got top use a pencil. Oh as if. We aren't told by our trainors that we have to use pencil, so that is the end of it.

Oh, I am very terrified. We are not trained and.. gosh. Whatever. So, the topic gave to us was about a Polishman rape case, and hey, this is my Headline:

Foreigner prosecuted yesterday

Polishman accused attempted rape

by a sixteen-year old girl

Quite good, huh? I am satisfied of it, only, I didnt used pencil. WAAAAAAAAAA!!!!! NO CHANCE!

All i need is a miracle from heaven above and I hope so. Whatever. Tomorrow is the awarding, but no hopes here!

Journalism, Journalism

Copy-reader. Yeah, that's me. As I hope you still remember it, I have already discussed it with everyone else who is willing to take a peek into my TROUBLED life. Well, yeah. Now, back to our main topic. Well, here it is. I have been chosen as the copy-reader in our team. Now, the thing that bothers me is that I believe I don't have talent in that area. But then, I cannot do anything about that since I am merely assigned for that part. Oh, duh...
And now, what is more is, I believe that is the lowest part slash rank or-whatever-you-call-it in our team. And I don't like it a little bit. You know me for not understanding those too-under duties because I more prefer to lead or do jobs in higher positions and ranks. And now, I have to test the waters and test my own capabilities in adopting this. Gosh, this gonna be the hard time for me..and us, rather. Because you see, unlike the past years and our previous successors, they have been trained well enough before joining the contest, while we.. we were left in the river to do our own. And almost all of us has no experience in this except Dude.
Please, please, please. What bothers me most is that I am not bothered. I have been always bantering and bothering whenever I have to join contests but this one doesn't bother me. Gosh..I think something is gonna happen that I won't really like. Oh, please, pray for me and wish me luck. WHEW!!

Outaraged!!!!

I am so terrifed, if you only know..I wanna cry. Someone put a very outrageous and unspeakable pictures. Such a slap on my face. A blot of escutcheon in me. Yaeh..there is this lewd pic in my friendster, and really, I was very very ashamed of it, even if I am not the one who put it. Gosh, did someone tried to sabotage my dignity?
So so so...I hate to say it but really I was ashamed, gosh. But anyway, I have already tried to change my password and I hope no one will dare sabotage me again. Too much of it, my mood is wearing off and I think that I have to do my research and browsing. Gosh, such a horrid day.

Flirt Wench- That's Me

Maybe those things in my past(I am talking about my lovelife) has affected my present. Oh, but how could I forget? That pastis past but it is the part of your present. I really believe in that. And mind you, that is my own saying.
Well, maybe I am turned to be this flirt because of my past. Oh, c'mon. First, I was talking about Archie who i thought I love dearly but turns out that maybe it is just an infatuation. First, Archie, who didn't regard my affection for him as a serious one and only thinks of me as a..what? A toy? Oh, to hell with him. And so as Geoff. I thought he really loves me and was only waiting for the right time, but now, I realized that you can't wait for the right time because the right time is everytime you are ready. Oh, how idiot I am. And maybe because of the tauntings of other people about me having no lovelife maybe thats why I am turning to be illusionada and whatever.
And now, to my realy problem. I am flirting again. And to Gio. Oh well, I don't know if I am just illusioning but I can feel it and I can see it that he is always watching me. Like last friday. I saw him watching me as I went to the stairs and he always does that. And also a while ago. I just came from a spree when I arrived with my friends and we were laughing and evetything when I saw him and he really..stared is the right word, see. He does. Does that mean he has some feelings for me?oh I would love to only i would be cautious in approaching flirting this time.

Big Girls Don't Cry; As Big Boys Often Lie

Come on!! I have learned enough! And I hate to say, more than intended to. I can see that I cannot totally have one to trust in this damnated world. Begone! HUh..First: About Geoff. How distorting of him, to have another girl behind my back. Oh, not that we are officially on, and right, I have told everyone who read my blog(so as my self) that I had nothing to do with him and I really MEAN it. I have alreday done it, trying to avoid him and never faling into his traps again. But then, it just hurts when I came unto the knowledge that he is flirting another grl as he tried to still flirt me. How conspicuos of him. I loathed him now. But there's no whay letting out of him since we are classmates of afew subjects. All I have to do is try avoid him( as if I can) and wait for the end of the class by next year and I won't see much of his displeasing face. Or maybe I could get a boyfriend so that myself would heal. But all in all, big girls DO don't cry.
Second: My new crush, Gio. Well, He is older than me by a year or two, come to think of it. He is handsome, and what caught my interest to him is that he looks like my model crush, thats why. And oh no, don't think of him as just a pretty-boy next door. He is also intelligent as he was taking Engineering with his lowest grade yet to be 84%. Isn't that smooth? But then, he is giving me this fool's thinking that he has a crush on me because whenever we met, he always says "Hi" that seems so odd because I think he doesn't know me, or am I that popular in te dormitory? And I don't know him that well, too. And he seems to always look at me, even if he thought I am not looking.
Hush. Third: Jewell. My bestfriend has a crush on him, and I believe he has a crush on me. Maybe. Because of his gestures and now, I don't wanna hurt my friend but he keeps on coming to me, having those cozy lectures he's got from me and others were starting to think he LIKES me. Oh..But I just can't do anything about that. Besides, its not confirmed that he likes me.
Fourth: Joseph. I was furious about him, don't you know that? He defeated me, as what he said. In our latest examination in Mathematics, I got two mistakes while he got only ONE mistake. How dare him. He ruined my papers with the proffessor, but come hell or heavens i will surely beat him next exam, no matter what. And he is flirting me. Huh...
Fifth: That guy I met at the Interbranch. No no no. The guy who took the first place where I seconded. I can't take him off my mind. Maybe because he is too intelligent and I am ignorant to a too intelligent boy, seeing tat the other day, my boy buds and classmates were amazed that I have read the Harry Potter 6. Oh, I have no time understanding sub-species, you know. Come to think of it.
Anyway, I am not saying in this article that boys are liars, its just, I was trying to point out that boys are a real ache to the girl's heads.

My, My, My

Oh..DISGUSTING, if there is no other word for it!! I hate my cousin, I hate my aunts who favored her, and so as my uncle who took their side as if he doesn't know what they REALLY are. Now, come to think of it, I don't dislike them nor hate them, I DESPISE them. I LOATHED them!!! How could they? When only I was just a little of advantage for them because I am smart, and not a frilly-looking girl who possessed- unlike them- a sophistication they can never outmaneuver on me even if they tried? Oh c'mon! For Pete's sake!!!
What am I, really? Why would my near-of-age relatives would hate me, or despise me whereas there's nothing I did do to them. And they think of me as a selfish brat. Come to think of it,when I was doing things that I thought would make my family happy. How could they? Oh well... For all the damnation world would care!
And you know what guys? I was livid when they were insinuating that I am using or taking their things WITHOUT permission. How dare they suggest that absurdity? And since my roommates were now on my cousin's side, they were making my life a hell!! Because all they can see is that cousin of mine being an angel and me a devil! And right this moment, I don't wanna be their roommates thats why I was deciding if I would transfer to another room dormitory next semster seeing this s now a semestral break But.. I can't afford to much trouble when I have only one year and would be gone. But..Oh!! I have already thwarted those aunts and uncle and my cousin in my family bible book and whatever might happen to me, be it good or bad, I had nothing to do with them because I had already disown them and if something bad happens to me, then they gotta be happy because they would get no load of me. But if I pull something a good luck upon me, why, they got nothing to do with me either and that they won't have any of my ever fortunes at hanbd. Huh!!! Let them go to the blasting freezing hell!

Geoff, The Dancing Partner

Why, I mean it!! *ALL SMILES HERE* I don't know if it is coincidental or whatever, but we are of in the same group and I don't have a match so we ended up together. I don't like it though. Oh, its not only because he is not a good dancer and so do I, but also because, I am not at ease with him compared to others, see? Oh, and it is so uncomfortable, especially we have to dance by pairs and everything! I don't knmow what to do. Anyway, could you tell me what a cha cha cha is?

All Alone In My Family World

Would you believe that? I don't know if I am the insecure or they are.. But I believe it is NOT me. I am not insecure, see? I know my weaknesses and I admit, I am insecure to THOSE people who are more intelligent than me, so why would I be insecure with my cousin? Or my nearly aged aunt and uncle? C'mon, thats fallacy!
But I can feel it. Like a girl alone in the midst of the rain, yeah I am. You know what? I think the only friends that were left for me were Joy, Jhan, and Joan. My dormmates. See, they are more concerned to me than anyone else in the world. Its like, we are compatible unlike my aunts and gay uncle who puts a grudge on me whereas I didn't do something. Or maybe I did something that didn't please them but, can we please everybody? And what is it that didn't please them? My intelligence? I think so, seeing my cousin hasn't achieved something as she was the shy type and she has brains but compared to me, it was nothing, then maybe then. Because she appeared the protagonist and me, antagonist. But its not fair. I am all alone. With my achievements and everything, still, I can;t feel someone so proud of me. Now, I am asking myself what should I do to make THEM proud of me. And for them to like me. I think no one likes me, hear it? NO ONE! Am I really not that likeable enough?Huhuhuhuhu.
I am not likeable and despite of my achievements, no one is proud of me. What should I do then? I feel all alone. How dare them leave to me like this! I hate them.

Oh. And one more thing. I really hate my cousin now. How dare her, to use my things without even asking permission to me. I know I am selfish sometimes, but then, I allow people to use my things, only and IF ONLY they ask from me. But you know what? THat cousin of mine, she is HORRIBLE! She doesn't even ask me, which is bad. She just use it as if it is hers. How dare her. But if I tell my feelings about it, her DEFENDORS would then say I am selfish. But ao what if I am, huh?

This Day Is My Day

Its interbranch already and you know, I didn't slept well the night before. I was restless and I just want to jump and jump and jump in order to take off the nervousness in me. But still, I am very nervous.Okay, so the morning came. As usual, I went to school early and I studied a bit. Hmn...But nothing came in to my mind. And then, my coaches gave me the possible questions and it relieved me from being zero.
As the contest started, I obsereved that there are only three of us, the other one coming from a small town(he is a boy) and the other came from a city too(she was a girl). All in all, there are just three contestants which means I'm gonna be the third if ever I am a goner.
And the Sci-Math Quiz officially started. For the easy round, we all got the same total score but for the average round, the other girl was down and only got 6 points while the boy and tied for 18 points. Boy, was I so elated that Im sure not to be the g0ner. For the difficult though, it was really difficult but still, I stood out to be the second so now, I have 75% discount for our next exam. Hahaha!!
And take note: that boy really made me bow to him, he is soooo smart in math and science and I like boys with brains like that. Only he is not so handsome-lloking hut he'll do fine.
I was also amused by him. Hehehe. When the quiz was finished, all we did with my teammates were eating and then, I was thirsty so I went to the water dispenser which is near him. Yes, I even don't know his name. Then, he bird-called someone and I thought he was calling his teammate before I realized that it was I whom he called. He called mne again and this time I turned to him and he smiled at me. Hahaha. And my teammates saw that and they were teasing me to him. As if! Well, he seem to be smiling to me all throughout the day. And he grinned at me when awarding came. Whatever....
Oh, so whaqt now? I think I have to go because I have to do my homework in hexrpg. No class tomorrow. So bye bye!

At Last!!!

Oh, guys..AM I SO HAPPY!!! Have ust inished my exam..although, to speak honestly, I had a difficulty in Mathematics. Yah..for the irst time in my last high school year!! Gosh, If you only know. Hehe. And know what our professor said about it? I'll qoute him: "If you only know, this is the easiest exam I have given to you." Oh c'mon!!!
And Im not sure about the other subjects..so there! For all I care. Tomorrow, I got a symposium o attend and the day after tomorrow itsa already he big day. OUr quiz!!!

I am gonna faint....

If The Feeling Is Gone

No, its not that I have no feeling for Geoff anymore but seeing as what he is doing now, it seems likely to forget him and move on. Like yesterday, I did tried my best to brush him off me. Ha! As if I cant. See?

Some So-Called Friends

Whew! SOme so-called friends. Well, there is one belief I was trying to absorb in myself now, which is: The thing you cannot stop form changing is the change itself. Well, Dude, one of my closest friend, was- I noticed, was changing. Oh, if you only know how much it hurt me. She was only Top 7 in our honor roll, but really, for me, it doesn't matter. We were still friends right? But right now..well..
Take this for instance. Dude has become a humbug now. Yeah..And it brings me to tears whenever I remember it. I don't know if the others realized it, but, seeing as I am the one in the group who always notices even the smallest things, well that's that.
Gosh, this is so painful. Like, she j\kept on talking that she didn't did well because she was absorbed by her extra curricular activities. And by the way she was talking! As if! An this day, she was like, abandoning us. Being by herself. I know she was hurting inside because of the hnor roll, and O am trying to understand. But is it right to leave me when she had already said she would come just because our adviser would treat them. Of course, I would be included if I want to, but I was hurt that she didn't even told me. How selfish of her! Oh well, I think I won't confront her but I'll just slowly drift away from them. It really hurts, see.

Friday Again

Its Friday again, and I am a bit hassled. You see, examinations are coming this Monday and Tuesday and our lessons are even more tougher than usual and I am cramming. And oh, have I told you that I was not allowed to join the Division Quizzes? I hate it.! Just when I am interested. But anyway, I already have my Interbranch and that's it.
So now, I am talking about my literature teacher. Well, she is really strict, and our own principal. Just then, she was absent yesterday and now, we went to the speech lab which is far from her cabin and we students were walking to go there when she suddenly called me and I thought she have something for me to be reprimand of. But then, she told me that she needed me to assist her cause she was having her leg pain and she can't walk if no one's assisteing her. Wow! Am I so proud! She has many favorites but I was so proud when she choose me among all of them! And she even called me at the end of the class to assist her. SEE?
And then, theres no other classes for us, so my classmates decided to be chil-like that time. They played something I don't know what is the name. And then, I was just there, strutting and distracting them. I even let them get mad at me. Hehehe. But the others thought it was fun! And then, I was passing by Joseph's group(remember him?). Well, he really- I thought he got rude- his face was \so near mine. But I didn't back off, though. Thats not the typical me. And then, he seem so rude but suddenly he tried to plant a kiss on me, althugh it landed on the air and he said "I love you, Happy". I think he was just joking..but still, I don't know. Maybe yes, maybe know. hahaha..For all I care anyway. But still, he seem does to like me.
And about Jewel. Oh, quite a few people now were noticing that he has a crush on me, but I think he is also not. We fancy bickering but only that.
ANd Geoff? I think I'm going to be "over him". Huh! I don't know and I still don't want to talk about it.

Reading Of Honors

Brrrrr...I am shaking with fear and nerousity. I know I am not going to make it to the Top 1, seeing that our "veterans"/ au fait have more advanced points than me. So, I am just hoping against hope that I will still belong in the Elite Four, thats what I call. Meaning, the Top 4. Or maybe, I am also hoping for the Magic 5. Whatever. As long as I belong to the top. ANd there is the teacher, talking rapidly about echus and certificate of- what? Oh, fine then.. So, this is it then. I belong to the Top 4. Hahaha!! At least, all that work paid off but I was trying to be more competitive this second quarter. Just hoping I'll get into the honors this coming graduation, I see. Hehe. So please congratulate me. I am happy.

1st Grading Report Card

Yah!! There!! Already got my card and I am itching to tell you this. Although I am a little bit dissappointed with my grades, I think it will do. Here, let me show you.

First Grading Grades:

1. Language-93
2. Literature-90
3. Mathematics-91
4. Physics-91
5. General Studies-91

See? That's not a bit satisfying for me. Anyway, that's score over 100 and I don't like it a bit. HUH! But...then..okay, it will do. Itching on waiting for the announcing of honors. Hehehe.But I'm not expecting big.

Quiz and Quiz and Quizzes. Boys Will Always Be Boys..SIGH!!!

Gosh, such a horrific week. Oh, uhuh yeah, I may be probably exaggerating. But yeah, it is. I hate it though. I'll not be able to enter the division test for sci-math fair because I have already this sci-math test for our interbranch brewing and it is in the same week on the same day. Huhhuhuhuhu. Although our Mathematics professor said that Interbranch is more apprpriate for me because it is regional level. Fine then, I'll take his word for that.
And boys. Oh boys.! Such a headache to a girl's head! Hehehe.. Well, there's Jewel again, haunting me. Oh, not that I like him..I mean, I didn't say that I don't like him. What I mean is..Oh c'mon please, I'll rephrase it again. I mean, he is not courting me, I have no fancy feelings for him, only that my friends were teasing me to him. Oh c'mon! How could two less same people be together? Haha.. As if they don't know that we always growl at each otherwhen we were together.
And there's Joseph. Oh, c'mon. Its as ig all guys were teased to me and as if they all like me. Come on! That's disgusting, do they know that? Oh, well..wish me luck please, cause or Interbranch quiz is moved this coming October 11. By the way, want to know my sched? Here it is:

• Release of Cards- Oct. 4
• Reading of Honors- Oct.5
• Interact Assembly (I will be at the main city!)- Oct. 6
• Exams (that's for two days)- Oct. 8 and 9
• Interbranch (Grrr...Im already scared)- Oct. 11

So, what are you waiting for?

Margaxina Noelle Rowland-Feathers/ Trampp

Ladies and gentlemen, children and parents, young and old alike, please meet her- Margaxina Noelle Rowland-Feathers/ Trampp, the hidden princess. Well, I really love this story, not because I was the one who made it, but because it is my secret dream. Honestly speaking guys, its as if my diary..but a diary of a person who is not be but I want to be. Yeah..right. I really want to be like her. Maybe thats also the thing why I am having confusions in the sequence ofte story, but well, fine for me. I am just strating yet, anyway. Oh, I hope you guys will be able to read it, I hope so. Because it will not only entertain you..I guarantee you that you will also get hidden messages from it between the lines. Yeah, right.