And Once Again

Yes! Once again, I took the blue ribbon. Only that this time, I have somebody to share. Okay, we are four in the goroup but who cares? It only seems like everything was my idea and they only helped me with the labor. Oh, bo-hoo. No matter what, the thing that matters is th eblue ribbon and that I didn't dissappoint them.

I don't know. It seems that this year, its my time to be a winner. Uhmn, no boasting here, but I really do believe that this is a good start. Although I am not having a good time in my socialization -but hey! This time I am already improving regarding it, too- but I was having a very very good time in my career. Well, look at that Interbranch thing. I got the first place. Then the Ms. Scholarship. And now this. I don't know if I am lucky or whatsoever but one thing is for certain, I am doing good this year.

And there is one thing I am happy about. I think I am getting matured. Uh-uh. Yes, I may look matured to others but I am emotionally not mature. I even have some emotional problems. I have some problems regarding socialization and putting up relationship with others. But hey hey hey- I am so happy now because I think I am improving like what I have said earlier. Maybe I would be completely mature emotionally by the time I reach college. Would that be good?

Busy As A Bee

I can say that right now, I really am. Not that I have too much work to do, only that I came from work. I mean, being from Interbranch essay wrting to promenade, its like a very very hard work for me. Especially that I am assigned on the hardest work ever- the table set-up.

Last year, and last last year, we, our batch, led by me, was the defending champion in table set-up. That means that no one had ever beat us since its just two years from now that the table set-up is put up. And I am just so proud that every idea/ motiff was mine.

So now, I am so very busy putting things up. but hey- it didn't stop me from playing RF, a new game that has tempted me into gaming. Well, my byo classmates/ friends cajoled me to try that game so, here I am, signing up for level-up. haha. Funny. I always told them that what they were doing was bad, you know, cutting classes just for this but I do not know what would I become in the near future now that I am going to try this game.

Now, I have to research for any ideas about table set-up again and Ihave to play Rf online now. Ba bye.

Mysterious?

"I don't know if they are just behaved, dirty, or whatever.." That came from someone during the promenade. And my name is included in that list. Am I really mysterious? I belive and with full conviction, I am not. I am not mysterious. Or am I? Because me myself has also been confused as to whether I am or I am not. Whatever.

I don't want to be associated to as a cold person because I believe that I am not.

Junior-Senior Promenade

Sure, I am already a Senior, and a graduating student. And I am so excited about it. It would be just-what?- weeks away and I'll be out of school. I mean, out of hgh school and then I'll be going into a university!! I am so very much excited at the prospect.

So...there came the promenade. Uhmn, well, it turns out to be okay, with me as the Muse of Scholarship. f course, all Senior Girls wore blue gown and so, I wore an aqua blue halter gown. They said I look princess-ish, but of course, I am not. So, thats it. My prom turned okay.

Our prom is unlike the other prom, though, We didn't take anyone we liked, we were forced to partner to the Juniors, just as the tradition. But no matter what, I really have fun.

Intebranch Expression Skills (Part Two)

Uhuhhuhuhmn... Well, good day. Six days of no internet! Such a record. Anyway,..uhmn... Expression skills, yeah. We have a very bad start. It is said that we must arrive in school before five a.m. because the venue is in far far away. But, since the college students arrived by six am, our branch director really got furious and she was very angry that we almost did not made it. And hey- all of us in the car got a motion sickness- like I am not a travel girl- and I haven't eaten my breakfast. By the time we arrived there, the program has already started.

Just as it is not enough, I relaxed a little and truied to ate., But the even for essay writing strated already so- I only ate so very very little bit of food. I started the writing.

I have studied many topics, current issues, terrorism and almost everything. But we-my coach and I- neglected the cyber education, because we thought that that is not so important. Turns out that cyber education is the topic. Lucky that I remembered something about it. And I was just so very lucky that I love internet.

So thats it. Our spelling event was of course, as usual, was the grandmaster of the year. Our dancesport was just perfect but a little complications in drama. About my writing, I felt that used enough words to amaze the judges and I have this feeling that I will win butI didn't told anyone in case I don't. And there came the awarding....

I was very very nervous. When my name was not yet said, I was very nervous. But then, it turns out that I won!! Gosh. This is a very unexplainable feeling but I felt so proud that I won. Swear, I am really and until now. We all got first for three events and the fourth, which has the complications only got third. But all in all, we are the over-all champion. And we are so happy.

We just came from our blow-out anyway.

Bye-bye, Gotta be ready for prom this afternoon.

Valentines Day

Sad, oh sad Valentines....

After all, Valentines isn't about love. As always. It is also about sadness. Why? Because St. Valentine died in this day, thats why. So, theres no need to be so sad about being sad and loveless in the day of Valentine. Its normal. Maybe, I am one of those people to be sacrificed on why St. Valentine died. Hehe.

Hmn. I have been neglecting my blog for what-?I dunno. Lost account of it. Anyway, its because my life is uneventful these days, so I am not in the mood. uhmn...Have I told you that I am going to be the representative of our school for an interbranch (AGAIN!) but this time, I am going to represent for the Essay Writing contest. Well, I was actually auditioning for the dframatic dialouge but then, we are all required to audition for the Essay writing because it is a part of our grade so..There! I cannot even believe it, gosh! I mean, I thought that I was wrting nonsense stuff that time because I am not in the mood. Come on.!

Okay. So, I have nothing to think by this time and nothing to write so, I gotta go and finish my certified classmates' post. Bye-bye.

Compilation For last Week

New Friend

Today, despite the many discripancies, I found a new friend. He is a bit gay, but all fine to me. I mean, we really got along, we have this common likes and has the same drive. He is more concerned on being happy than to be concerned on boys stuff which made us compatible.There is one thing, though. First, I am not his original friend. It looks like I am stealing him from his original friends which is also a friend of mine. And, come to think of it, our pair-up and friendship is too perfect and so sudden that it may also ruin all of a sudden. I dunno.But there is something for sure. I'll enjoy the time we will be friends, at least, there will be a memory in me that we are friends, right?Well, at least.

Clueless Innocent

Right now, this is the perfect words I can imagine to fit to myself. Yeah, yeah yeah. Simple. Because I am clueless, and I am innocent. Can't believe it? Haha.Seriously speaking, thats what I'm thinking now. Because I have been treated like shit for these past few days.Okay, I am exaggerating only. My Aunt and her ever-faithful bitch friend Bessy. Hm-hmn. And I am so clueless why they are acting like "that" to me. So, I' am clueless. And I cannot think of any reason why. Thus, I am innocent.Anyway, I don't care that much. I kept on telling myself "Why would I be bothered?" If they don't plase them, then why would I please them too? Thats one of my rules.So? Babye! Haha. They may go and rot to some dingy place(which I am hoping) and I would not care a bit. C'est la vie! Au revoir.

Died and Lived...Again

Have you ever seen a rose bud so fresh and pink and began blossoming then died suddenly? And then, after weeks or so, the rose blossomed again. But whoa- wait! That stops there. You will not be able to know whethere the rose really continued to blossom or just died.I can relate it to me. To explain further, there is a guy across another sormitory named Jean. I think he is one of the most handsome in that dormitory because many girls has crush on him, including me but that admiration just vanished.But it went back again. After a while, I noticed him again. But i don't know this time, I mean, we can't know. its because its like he meant it as a really business. I mean, he started to become visible to my vision.For instance, he kept on looking at me whenever I am around. I just can feel it. Theres this time, I was reading my horoscope with my friends and I was reading it loudly. He just came to me and said, " CAn you read Leo for me?" Well, he might think I meant something when I told him, "You are a Leo? Well, I am too!" Which is very true.Another one. He asked for my number through ym friend. But of course, I don't own a cellular phone by now so bye-bye. Haha. Maybe its a lucky thing too because he has these traits I dissapproved.

Self-Control

What does I know about it? I mean, yes, I am a model student, and a really good one, too. But..I cannot control myself that much especially when we will be talking about something to eat, internet, magazines and books. Gosh- I have a little self-control for that.

Yes, I may look like a disciplined stuff, but I am not. Just this morning, I ate two burgers. Imagine that, two!! MY gosh..Now I know I am going to be fat someday.

But I have to have this self-control stuff. If only I can buy it somewhere but i know I cannot. I don't want to get fat. I also don't want to lose my money that instantly because of internet and magazines and books. I want to learn those self-control but I do not know where to start.

Yes, a person could be smart, intelligent and a good role model, but there are also imperfections that gives her perfection. Just like me, I lack that self-control.

Back From The Past

I thought all of it was past. Like those words, past is past. Simply like that. But its more than like it and I don't believe its happening again. I don't know what does this mean, but I am in a semi-confusion now.



I saw Archie just this minute! This very moment. Remember him? Okay, if you don't, let me refresh your memory. Archie is a long-time love of mine whom I was very smitten over that I cannot deny it. Well, I was young that time, so I am super naive. I have made many mistakes by it and he was just only playing with my feelings.



Hmn..I thought I have just forgotten all about it. Yah, I mean, I am not thinking about him anymore. In fact, I have started flirting with other guys, if you remember Geoff, Joseph and many more. Well, in fact, I have a new fling now too but that will be at least the next post.



Back to Archie. Just this afternoon, in our Mathematics class, my friend talked about him. Uhmn,...I am not that moved. Well, I was not totally affected by it. My friend just said that she saw Archie yesterday and that he changed a lot..some old stuff, you know. And I think that is normal.



But, as I saw him just now, thinking about it, I wana go over my bowl of emotions. Swear. I mean, I am acting so natural that when our eyes met, its as if I don't know him. He seemed surprised too and I acted very gracefully. but I cannot believe that it was him I am seeing. Its because I have not seen him for sometime that made my heart jump. I am very cheesy, I know, but thats how it was done.

Sigh.

See ya later.

Online

Eherm... Right this moment, this very moment, I am in the field of romance. Yeah, right. With Joseph. I was right there talking to him via YM. Hmn..Well. Its our exams tomorrow..but well, I have studied already so..kudo. Its okay to chat till evening, because I still got morning.

Hmn..We didn't talk about something in partcular. Only stuffs. Nonsense, you know. But it meant a lot. I mean, not that much but at least.

Well, we talked about something right now. Hmn..I semll something fishy. Seems like..He is jealous of Prince William? Because it is a knowledge that I have a crush on the said Prince. Uhmn..I think that also means that he is remembering what I am saying..what are my likes and dislikes..and anything. Lets find out.

Hmn..He seemed nonchalant as I was asking him about his plans. Maybe he is not that interested in me? But he seems green with envy with Prince William. But he also sent me Prince William's exclusive pics. Oh, whatever Joseph.

What?! He just kept on sending me pics about my crushes. Uh-oh. Well, we will just wait for a development.

Exam and Whatevers

If yesterday I was happy and too exuberant, this day, my day is bad. As in I am in a bad hair day. Uhmn...no, not my hair I think. I think its my luck, or whatever you call it. Uh-oh, just let me explain it and you be the judge.

First, my exam. My oncoming exam. I cannot concentrate and I do not know the reason behind it. I mean, its like yes, I am studying but I think it is not that hard enough to be planted in my mind. Whatever. My mind is not in a functioning mood to work or whatsoever. I have been sleeping all day and thats not what I have in my mind.

Second. Its my aunt and that loathesome cousin. Again, I don't know what they have on their mind to be mad/ angry on me again. Oh, as if I care. But I was just hurt when I saw them entertain their friends first and just treated me like a shit that they cannot see. but, well, they may go to hell and rot there and I would not care anymore because they are already blacklisted. I am just being honest with myself that I was hurt by that treatment but...duh... I have already forgotten about it.

Then, one of my Aunt, an Aunt who has her own family now but still close to us, came from another place and we ate. Hey- I was running out of money and its a very lucky chance that she gave me a hundred bucks so now I have money. So I do not care whther I am very that unlckjy this day.

People, People and People

I do not know why people like..keep coming on me this day. Yeah, swear I do not know myself. Its just that,there's Geoff, there's Joseph, there's my so-called friends and a teacher and oh-not only people- even luck keeps coming on me, and I am so grateful for it.

Okay. Where will we go first? Geoff? Well, okay. I don't know if he is just flirting with me again the next time around, I really do not know but I can tell that there is something wrong. I mean, uhmn..well, he acts like. Let me explain. Almost everyone knew about this Joseph-Happy tandem, and of course, Geoff won't certainly miss it, I know. Just a fes days ago, he keeps on acting like he really wanted badly to talk to me but I avoided him. But as I realized that if I have no feelings for him, then, theres no need avoiding him.

I talked with him by our second period this afternoon because we have no class. Its not a set conversation, just by chance. I was sitting on this chair and he approached me and we started to talk about stuffs. Then, he just suddenly asked me if which would I prefer more: Those intelligent or those average? Of course, my answer is either of the two. Then, he keeps on mourning about why he is a slow-learner in Math. And I just felt that he wants to say something, or insinuate, rather.

I know he wants to insinuate that I only like Joseph because he is good in Math and that he wants to ..oh, no need. I am confused but I know what is the meaning of it.

Okay. Lets go next to Joseph. Well, just as normal, he keeps on talking to me, and..I suspected something. I think he REALLY has a crush on me. Theres this one friend of his, a girl, who is the only one who knew his crush and then, that girl justy asked me a while ago if has he already courted me. Of course, the answer is no. Because it is the truth. Then, theres this dissappointment in her eyes when I answered no. Its as if she knew all along. Yeah, maybe. I dont know. Maybe just an illussion.

Then, this morning, our teacher asked us to check this list if we were going to attend the prom. I am not quite sure yet and the paper hasn't arrived on me yet. But when we were looking for the paper, it is already in Joseph's hands and he asked me if I am going. I thought he asked me that because he wanted to make sure I'll attend? Maybe. I don't know. But his gesture warms my heart.

Next, this so-called friends of mine who made me cry for days. Okay, I am not mad at them anymore. Actually, I still consider them as my friends. Yeah, no lying here. Then, they were trying to make us peace again, and I have already granted them that although they do not know. Then, the time I played badminton a while ago, Dude insisted on playing although she knew that I will be her opponent. Its as if she is trying to talk to me. But I just played and played and didn't try to talk to her. No way would I. Maybe she really wanted to talk to me.

But I didn't make an attempt. If they want to reconciliate with me, then they have to do the first move, and not me. But for me, we were already friends.

And luck just kept on coming to me. Our high school year book was aproved, I have this okay love life and almost everything that not a material thing can make you happy. So what will make me happy more? Nothing else but God's blessings!

Game Week

This week, it seems like every end of the period we have some game to put in our mind. Aside from the mental activities that we have every start of the day which is Physics, till the next last subject in the afternoon which is Mathematics. After that, our last period was now starting to become interesting which, by Monday we have a basketball, not the boring lectures. And by Wednesday, we played Volleyball. By Friday, although we have no class by that period but I played badminton.

By Monday, we played basketball and you just imagine how happy I am when I shoot one hoop. Oh...Really, like I was ignorant with it because it was my first time. Haha. Too funny yet it is true.

And then, by Wednesday, we played volleyball. Kudo here. I know a little about volleyball so I am quite confident playing it. I scored perfect ten for tossing and so as for the handling. Hahaha. See? I am not quite a loser in sports, although not a good one.

So by Friday, we were bored and even if our prof was not around, we played some games. And by that, I played badminton because thats the game I like much. I mean, its not much of a sweat you know. So there! I played and played till; I dropped dead.

So far, I have an enjoyable weekdays and no eruption of mood here. And hey- let me make an announcement. By Thursday, I got my card and I got straight A's. And by friday morning, honors were announced and guess what?! I am the secxond honor for our third semester. Its like my life is just so perfect but I know it is not. I mean, I have this budding love life, good grades, avergae money. I am satisfied and I thanked God for it. What other things would I look for, anyway?