Friday, April 11, 2008
A College!
I have my new galsses, and I have told you that already. I am so open to all new things, that post graduation, my family and I went to my new school to survey it to see what it really looks like,. It is not just a simple plain school, it is a campus. It has its own stores, inside dorms, digital librearies..its just..fantastic, because it is more modern than the school I went to in high school. So, I am going in that State-University now, and I am inside in the prospect. Hahahaha.
I gotta go now, because I have to search for the school's schedule, and watch American Idol in the computer. Ba-bye!
P.S. My Mom has just gone away again now..from here to abroad. Gosh.. I just hope that she would always be fine, just like Father and my sisters and the others. Well, goodbye now, really.
Monday, April 07, 2008
Eyeglasses
I wore glasses now, as if care that much about lookd.s. I dont. But I am a bit uncomfortale at first in terms of doing the cmputer, texting and etchetera. Duh...
Okay. Enough of that. I will be talking aout second matter now. My yearbook.
Gosh! Mther gave me money to pay for the yearbook and full, but then, I spent the money unknowingly, and now was problematic of how to solve my problem. Gosh.. WHat shall I do? a so problemtaic now...
And am wishing right this moment and for the past few days since have since Julius that he will ask me out. Just like a friendly date, anyway. Would that be great? I hope so... I m not givng up yet..
And lastly our graduation. Its gonna be tomorrow, and its like..weird. Everytime I think of it, was having gosebumps. It was like, i want to graduate but I dn't want to. Oh, whatever. Well, que sera sera. Whatever will be, will be.
Saturday, April 05, 2008
A Long Time Ago...
So thats it. Father wants me to meet them again. Uh no.. Particularly, Uncle Romeo, my father's close friend. But..we haven't seen each other for almost a decade. Yeah, right. So thats it. I have been dreading when Uncle Romeo said that we will meet at his house, therefore his family is there..
But what truly I am dreading is the part of his son. He is named Julius. He is my crush, childhood crush and I haven't seen them ever since th tradegy in our family happened.
Okay. SO thats it. I was dreading if he was just like..you know, in the past. Because we were friends, good friends. And I was saying to myself, what if he changed? Like, is he a drug user now? Haha. Yah..really insane/. Or I was going on like...Has he turned so bad now..? Duh. WHatever. But yes, I am so expecting for the worst.
But what I saw was very different. He is still soft-spoken, but he is not that handsome now. Well..so? Its just becaus eof his pimples. DUh.. I mean, he is still handsome, blotched only by pimples. ANd gosh! He still remembered me. I cannot imagine it., I mean, it was like, we were good friends but not that really close so what happened? He really knows me that much, and I an so overwhelmed. GOsh/..
WEll, all in all it was nice and Julius was still ever ever nice. Bye!
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
Near Near Near
And I also have this one problem right now: I don't know how to edit our family picture. You know, for our yearbook. Aaaaaarghhh!! WHatever! I hate it./ Maybe once again, I have to go to a studio. Duh...Whatever. Hmph! Unlucky.
Okay. And what pissed me off yesterday was the fact that I told Mother to buy me a book but no one bought me something. Goodness!
Duh>>>>>>>>
Monday, March 31, 2008
Hello!!!
Okay, so? What is happening to me now? Well, I just realized that I was not born with luck (OH!), but I was born with God's guidance and blessings. Yeah, you heard it right. Luck is just an assisting..assistant? Hahaha. Well, yeah, anyway, it is true.I realized that this morning. Anyway, I have so lots to tell I do not know if I will be able to make it from the very start to the very end in a very neat way.
Okay. First, my Mother came back home now for graduation. You see, the last time she was here in France, we have had a fight. Yes, the last day she ought to be staying here. So..uhmn.,..I want to make amends. So, naturally, I acted as the good daughter. Of course, it was never really easy, seeing as I was at ease on being just with myself, no one to scold me and notice things that I do. In short, I was once free. But uh-oh, never mind. I tried hard enough. So right now..there were no any..uhmn..break-outs. Thats lucky.
So..I also saw the movie..uhmn..Freaky Friday. I realy love it. Love that movie. And you know what? I want that thing to happen to me too so that my Mum will be able to understand me better on why we are so..different.
Okay. Now, also our graduation. It is nearing and i have turned to become afraid pf the future. You know what? I have also doubts on attending this school, so faraway from home, but I want it too at the same time. Well, duh.. WHy won't I just give it a try anyway? Right?
Mwah!
Friday, March 28, 2008
And She Is Back!
And my sisters also graduated in elementary level. I am so happy for them. The youngest is valedictorian and the other one is with merits. I am so happy, happy happy. During the speech, my sister cried, and mother was not there yet because her flight has been delayed. Poor baby... Hehehehe
So, my Mere was thereby afternoon because my sisters' graduation was morning.
And the best part: I got mynew cellphone. A Nokia N72. Yehey!! JEjejejeje
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Angry, oh so Angry
I really have to go home, to my country home now because tomorrow is my sisters' graduation and I am their escort. And I have to go home..NOW!
Anyway, what is my point is that, I am proud of myself this day. You know why? Because even if I am very angry that I wanted to whack the things around, I didn't. I learned to control myself now. And I didn't cursed. Yes, I swear and now I love myself!
Take note: I love myself even before but I love myself more now.
Canot Believe It
I cannot really believe it!!!
Just a while ago, as I was going here in the internet cafe, I met Archie. Oh, he was still ever handsome, only that he has gone fat, but all the same, the same guy I have loved for many years.
Gosh....!
Oh, you might say it is just an infatuation, or obsession. Maybe it is but I will still likely to call it a puppy love because puppy love has a deeper meaning.
I have been inlove with him since first year hgh school, and now.. I don't know maybe its gone. I was just surprised to see him again. And I can still remember those moments we have. Of courtse, we have never been "officialy on" but we have some kind of mutual understanding. And oh, I don't know but everytime I see him I will always be taken up by surprise. Like.. I have just seen Prince William. Hahahaha!
For What Is Yours
Oh, they are all interconnected. Its just like..how could you get this thing if you are not destined to it? Whatever. Take for example this girl that is deaf, and can only understand you through lip-reading. She is pretty, and also smart. She joined a beauty pageant. It was just like...perfect. Then came the question and answer portion. Her answer was very sure and she was confident and just like a normal person but here comes the buzzer that cannot be lip-read, and so, she went overdue of the time, and was only made as first runner-up. What a pity. She could have just won, had she only heard the buzzer. And the judges cannot make considerations just because she is deaf, because it was not a beauty pageant for deaf. So, she just contented herself the red ribbon.
If you have seen Ice Princess, it was also a pity, because she has the talent, and a very good performance and was only mistaken just because her mother didn't arrived to watch her perform. So, she setted for the silver cup, the judges didn't made considerations.
Why I am writing this? Well, I just felt of kinda, sharing to you what life is all about. Because I noticed that there were people who likes the phrase, "By hook or by crook" which is not very good. Because it is like, implying that you must get the thing that you must not have. It is bad because it is not right. So, I just wanted to advice you readers even though you are not asking for one that you should wait on things, you must not force the things to come to you because if it is for you, then it will be, but you must also work a little but not that much.
Got it?
I hope you did because it is a sensible topic for me, and I hope you really do get it, just to eliminate villain people in the world who get things not for them their own way.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Just A Duchess
Well, as our consistent top one our batch was unsatisfied when she took the salutatorian place the final markings, all the grades were again calculated up and then...here is the result.
So, now, I am not the first hnrable mention, just the second honorable mention, and our former valedictorian is now a salutatorian. And me? Switched with the first honorable now.
Oh, I have never felt offense about it because all from the start, I knwo its coming, so that is just it, and I cannot do anything about it.
Uh-oh. I have a very busy days to come this end of the month and beginning of the next month. Kudo.. As if I care. I know I can manage it.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
First Honorable Mention
I was nervous when our teachers told us that the announcement of honors will begin because I was doubting whether I would be able to make it or not,but of course, I have alreday told myself that no matter what happened, I will think of myself as the best.
So? Yes, I maybe just a First Honorable Mention Graduate and you might not think that of me as the best, but so what? At least, I believe in myself that I am one of the best. Its ot on what you have achieved lately, anyway, but on what you believe in and how you act too.
Who Is? (I have already decided)
Last night, it was one of my friend's birthday. He is a boy, actually, and the Setter in our class. Well, lets call him Setter. Okay, so he invited the whole volleyball team in our class, and four girls only- which was comprised of me, my two friends and another one who is the girl friend of Giant. We have fun. Really. And you should have seen their house, it is soooo big, mansion-like, but not that much. And I like their house's architecture. So regal, the kind of house I want for the future though mine is more elegant. Okay, okay. Back to our main topic, Setter's birthday. My friends and I were the early ones on his party, so there. We are the three roses among the many thorns. Thats after Giant's gf arrived. Him and her you know.
But before that, we chatted at his house, playing online games and etc etc. But then, after eating, one of our friends started saying we should play truth or truth (instead of truth or consequence). So, we played. Morty was there, and he evn took the next seat from mine, seeing that we were friends. We really were, and until now! Many people were asked and many questions were asked. All ahve answered the truth, I think. Okay..So, this. I have asked some questions, like, if I still loved Geoff. Of course, the answer was a very big NO! which is the truth.
The next question thrown to me was something..too personal. They asked me who in our batch I would have a crush then IF ever. I answered- rather hesitantly- Morty. Gosh!!! And to think he was sitting next to me! Can you just imagine it...
Then, they asked him if ever there will be a chance he would court me. Know what was his answer? He will, if he had no girlfriend. But of course, I just thought he was just polite or something...
Just this day, I was asked my Jewel if who should I choose: Morty or Geoff? It didn't took me enough time to answer because as the words were forming out of his mouth, I already knew the answer. I'll choose Morty. Not that because he was more handsome, but because I was already pissed off by Geoff and enough is ENOUGH!
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Coming nearer...
I like this sentence. Its just like, I am beginning an end by ending another chapter of my life, and strating something new. Like, its Chapter Three now, huller? Just like that. Gosh, I am so excited...! But then, I think I have to feel fear because almost everyone in our batch felt that thing. But the thing is, I didn't feel any fear that I am going toi a very far away university, as long as my college life is secured.
Oh. And I just remembered Mother, my Maman. She is coming back! Because she wants to attend our graduation. My sisters were graduating ( the two of them) from primary school, and I, in high school. I mean, gosh. I am not getting any younger but older and so, I have to be matured.
Right now, I know the responsibility as the elder sister and what it is to me. I love my parents. I love Mama and Papa. I love my sisters. And I don't want them to suffer, so, I will do all the best I can to maintain my grtades and to graduate in college to, to face my real life. Oh, gosh. This is it!~ Another sign of maturity. Hahahay!
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Got It!
I was very impatient with my university results, it took so long. So, naturally, I put one of my antics- another consequence. I told my friend and myself that if the letter would not come this week- and that is, until Friday- I would not proceed to study in that university. But if it will, then I'll be able to know on what to do.
And the letter came by Tuesday. Our principal brought it herself, saying that she have good news for me and my friend who took also the exam. Our principal gave the result to me and I was so shocked to see that there was a written "scholar" there. I really gaped, and the thought that I didn't even sat on my chair. Our principal was amused with my reaction. But who wouldn't? I got a scholarship- no fees for everything.
Gosh. Was I so glad. And I really thanked God for it. Because he gave me blessings that is so very very important to me. Lord God, I thank you very much. You really are the best(which I know before).
Sunday, March 09, 2008
Infatuated Again
I believe that MAc is the man most suitable for me. He was nearly perfect for my dream and perfect man. Look at this: he is handsome, no not that handsome, but good-looking. He is also smart. I really like him. He doesn't smoke, and he doesn't even drink even a teeny little bit of alcohol. And MAc is just so charming!My ideal man.He is a loyalist, too. I mean, he doesn't want to cheat in his gf whenever he has one.
But there is one thing I might not seem to like in him. He is very fond of pretty girls. Huhuhuhu. But that, I think, is just his only flaw I don't like. yes, he cuss, but thats okay. His fond for pretty girls was the only problem.
One day, I went to the dormitory late. I was just so..uhmn..tickled and happy about what he does. He was on the dormitory door, talking to someone else, when he saw me. He pinched my arm and called me, "Happy.." Oh, man! Was I so glad!
This is the only thing i can say.I don't like him that much to the point that I am obssesed. But, the more that i got to know him, the more I like him. He is my perfect man I am looking for long.
Saturday, March 08, 2008
The Recollection Day
First things first in the morning, I was doubting whether what should I act whenever the reconciliation time will come. Of course, everyone knows about the fight we have (my so-called best friends) and many have attempted to push us to be friends again. But, as the "me", I didn't put up to reconciliate with them and that bothers me and what to do at the reconciliation day.
So, there. I reconciliate with someone. Well, i apologized to the one who irritated me most, the one who called me "best". I ask for forgiveness. Then, I just don't know it, Dude and the others were coming to me, crying and saying sorry. Well, I acted without a plan, I did go on with the flow. I accepted what they have been offering to me.
Then, they talked to me after the reconciliation. There, we were enlightened, and understood each other that we just misunderstood each other. In an instant, like nothing happened, we were back to being friends again, where in fact, it took us four months to go on the cold war of ours.
So, there. Just in one zap we were friends again. But, we also got many teasing from our classmatyes and the others. Maybe they were really happy too that at last, we were reunited after four months. They have been trying us to make amends with no avail and maybe that was a 'time' for them.
I am so very happy.
P.E. Day
I played volleyball for the morning event. Of course, I cannot say that I am so good at it, because I am more comfortable with home rooms. Well, our team, the senior team, was competing against the Juniors. They were our target enemy, something like that. But then, we lost against them. Our batch was not that sporty and even though our boys really love volleyball, and we also know about its rules, we never came to like it that much. So there, we lost for the women's division but at least, the boys winned alright.
The only thing that made me felt so troubled was that, the last score of the opposing team was made by me.Its like..I wasn't able to get back the ball to the other side of the court. And because of that, I blew our chances.
Although my friends didn't blame me because all of us were to be blamed, I still felt bad. And most of us girls swore a revenge by afternoon's activity.
I joined the tug-of-war. Huh! And as if, we really were serious that time. We really mopped the Juniors on the floor! Tchah! Poor babies!!
So, by the afternoon, we have compensated enough scores to be on edge with the others. I may be a little bit devilish this time by swearing revenge against them, but hey- its competition. Whats the truth is, we truly ROCKS!
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
Semi-finals Finished
Well, I felt a little okay now ut not that okay. Duh...So what? As long as I'll be out of high scool then that would be fine for me.
And oh-there's this other thing that is a bit bugging my mind. I mean, its still part of our graduation rites, traditional you know. The recollection. it would be on Friday and I am not eager about it. But others were eager because they said that its time that our friendship reunites again. Sorry but no, I don't think so. Dhhhhh..
Sunday, March 02, 2008
Lost O'Lost
- My RRJ Pants
- My Titus Ballpen color black
- A Pocketbook I borrowed
- My Calculator, precious, oh'so precious calculator
See, I have been some kind of a clumsy, forgetful girl this week. I have lost those important things just for ONE week. Gosh. This RRJ pants, I know mother would kill me if she will find out that I have lost it. It cost that much, you know. And this Titus ballpen, I believe that it is one of the factors of my lucky charm, and now its gone. I cannot believe and I cannot figure out how I lost it. And so are the pocketbooks. But I guess its in the care of one of my friends. Oh, I hope so. And the last one, the most important of all, my caluclator. I really cried and panicked when I learned that it was gone. Luckily, someone just borrowed it from me without my permission. But at least.
Sigh. I promise I would take good care of my things again that no one will be able to touch.
Saturday, March 01, 2008
At Last!
I just hope that next time I browse my search engine, those words I have put in it will appear.
Wish me luck.
Journal?!
Uhmn...I am running out of ideas. Why don't you help me? As if someone's reading this, hahahaha. Well, I think I am making fun of myself, but its okay. Kudos here. What does kudo mean anyway? Whatever. Oh, our exam is coming this Monday, and I have studied a little. I just hope that my exams will go well. PLease, I hope so, oh dear God.
Uhmn...About this dormitory thing. I have been not staying in my own room now for almost three weeks, I believe. I didn't even slept there anymore. Well, I don't want to blame my aunt and my cousin, but they were the reason anyway. I don't want to talk about them. But remembering what I did a while ago, I have to talk about it.
Yes, I am not sleeping there, but my things were still there. I have been sleeping in another friend's room. SHe is okay with it. But my things were left in that room. Thing is, thery locked the room, and I wanted to take a bath. So, I destroyed the lock. Hehehe. Well, I know they were angry about it, but for all I care. Its their fault anyway that they didn't gave me the key first. I don't know if they really wanted to do it- to not to inform me. But anyway, I am not that evil, I am planning to mend what I have broken. Hehehe.
Exam. Semi-finals. At last. I can feel the scent of graduation. Well well well. So what now? I think I have to study now. Bye!
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
And Once Again
I don't know. It seems that this year, its my time to be a winner. Uhmn, no boasting here, but I really do believe that this is a good start. Although I am not having a good time in my socialization -but hey! This time I am already improving regarding it, too- but I was having a very very good time in my career. Well, look at that Interbranch thing. I got the first place. Then the Ms. Scholarship. And now this. I don't know if I am lucky or whatsoever but one thing is for certain, I am doing good this year.
And there is one thing I am happy about. I think I am getting matured. Uh-uh. Yes, I may look matured to others but I am emotionally not mature. I even have some emotional problems. I have some problems regarding socialization and putting up relationship with others. But hey hey hey- I am so happy now because I think I am improving like what I have said earlier. Maybe I would be completely mature emotionally by the time I reach college. Would that be good?
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Busy As A Bee
Last year, and last last year, we, our batch, led by me, was the defending champion in table set-up. That means that no one had ever beat us since its just two years from now that the table set-up is put up. And I am just so proud that every idea/ motiff was mine.
So now, I am so very busy putting things up. but hey- it didn't stop me from playing RF, a new game that has tempted me into gaming. Well, my byo classmates/ friends cajoled me to try that game so, here I am, signing up for level-up. haha. Funny. I always told them that what they were doing was bad, you know, cutting classes just for this but I do not know what would I become in the near future now that I am going to try this game.
Now, I have to research for any ideas about table set-up again and Ihave to play Rf online now. Ba bye.
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Mysterious?
I don't want to be associated to as a cold person because I believe that I am not.
Junior-Senior Promenade
So...there came the promenade. Uhmn, well, it turns out to be okay, with me as the Muse of Scholarship. f course, all Senior Girls wore blue gown and so, I wore an aqua blue halter gown. They said I look princess-ish, but of course, I am not. So, thats it. My prom turned okay.
Our prom is unlike the other prom, though, We didn't take anyone we liked, we were forced to partner to the Juniors, just as the tradition. But no matter what, I really have fun.
Friday, February 22, 2008
Intebranch Expression Skills (Part Two)
Just as it is not enough, I relaxed a little and truied to ate., But the even for essay writing strated already so- I only ate so very very little bit of food. I started the writing.
I have studied many topics, current issues, terrorism and almost everything. But we-my coach and I- neglected the cyber education, because we thought that that is not so important. Turns out that cyber education is the topic. Lucky that I remembered something about it. And I was just so very lucky that I love internet.
So thats it. Our spelling event was of course, as usual, was the grandmaster of the year. Our dancesport was just perfect but a little complications in drama. About my writing, I felt that used enough words to amaze the judges and I have this feeling that I will win butI didn't told anyone in case I don't. And there came the awarding....
I was very very nervous. When my name was not yet said, I was very nervous. But then, it turns out that I won!! Gosh. This is a very unexplainable feeling but I felt so proud that I won. Swear, I am really and until now. We all got first for three events and the fourth, which has the complications only got third. But all in all, we are the over-all champion. And we are so happy.
We just came from our blow-out anyway.
Bye-bye, Gotta be ready for prom this afternoon.
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Valentines Day
After all, Valentines isn't about love. As always. It is also about sadness. Why? Because St. Valentine died in this day, thats why. So, theres no need to be so sad about being sad and loveless in the day of Valentine. Its normal. Maybe, I am one of those people to be sacrificed on why St. Valentine died. Hehe.
Hmn. I have been neglecting my blog for what-?I dunno. Lost account of it. Anyway, its because my life is uneventful these days, so I am not in the mood. uhmn...Have I told you that I am going to be the representative of our school for an interbranch (AGAIN!) but this time, I am going to represent for the Essay Writing contest. Well, I was actually auditioning for the dframatic dialouge but then, we are all required to audition for the Essay writing because it is a part of our grade so..There! I cannot even believe it, gosh! I mean, I thought that I was wrting nonsense stuff that time because I am not in the mood. Come on.!
Okay. So, I have nothing to think by this time and nothing to write so, I gotta go and finish my certified classmates' post. Bye-bye.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Compilation For last Week
Saturday, February 09, 2008
Self-Control
Thursday, February 07, 2008
Back From The Past
I saw Archie just this minute! This very moment. Remember him? Okay, if you don't, let me refresh your memory. Archie is a long-time love of mine whom I was very smitten over that I cannot deny it. Well, I was young that time, so I am super naive. I have made many mistakes by it and he was just only playing with my feelings.
Hmn..I thought I have just forgotten all about it. Yah, I mean, I am not thinking about him anymore. In fact, I have started flirting with other guys, if you remember Geoff, Joseph and many more. Well, in fact, I have a new fling now too but that will be at least the next post.
Back to Archie. Just this afternoon, in our Mathematics class, my friend talked about him. Uhmn,...I am not that moved. Well, I was not totally affected by it. My friend just said that she saw Archie yesterday and that he changed a lot..some old stuff, you know. And I think that is normal.
But, as I saw him just now, thinking about it, I wana go over my bowl of emotions. Swear. I mean, I am acting so natural that when our eyes met, its as if I don't know him. He seemed surprised too and I acted very gracefully. but I cannot believe that it was him I am seeing. Its because I have not seen him for sometime that made my heart jump. I am very cheesy, I know, but thats how it was done.
Sigh.
See ya later.
Sunday, February 03, 2008
Online
Hmn..We didn't talk about something in partcular. Only stuffs. Nonsense, you know. But it meant a lot. I mean, not that much but at least.
Well, we talked about something right now. Hmn..I semll something fishy. Seems like..He is jealous of Prince William? Because it is a knowledge that I have a crush on the said Prince. Uhmn..I think that also means that he is remembering what I am saying..what are my likes and dislikes..and anything. Lets find out.
Hmn..He seemed nonchalant as I was asking him about his plans. Maybe he is not that interested in me? But he seems green with envy with Prince William. But he also sent me Prince William's exclusive pics. Oh, whatever Joseph.
What?! He just kept on sending me pics about my crushes. Uh-oh. Well, we will just wait for a development.
Saturday, February 02, 2008
Exam and Whatevers
Friday, February 01, 2008
People, People and People
Game Week
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
SUPER irritated
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Welcome Home!
Friday, January 25, 2008
WHEW!
Okay. First, let me tell you what we did for the day. It is such a very very exhausting day. Super. Because we have some physical activities in our P.E called the Amazing Race but its no amazing there. It is not for me, anyway. Because it is so tiring, so disgusting and so useless. You cannot even use a mental stuff. Gosh! Better do some mental stuff like solving mathematics problems and so on...
Speaking of Mathematics, well..uhmn..I have a conffession to make. I think this is the most revolting for me, but not for you. I've got a crush on those math geek of ours, Joseph! No no no no no. Precisely a no because he has this one time where he beat me in Mathematics but well, I only realized it for now..and..oh, whatever. Well, I just realized it when one day, I befriended him to calm the always-there tension between us. But NADA..IT ONLY MADE ME HAVE A CRUSH ON HIM. And thats it. Gosh..how could I? Like, I haven't experienced the bitterness of love..Uh-oh.But still, this time, I am beginning to crave for his attention even if I have no rights. And there is also one girl in our school who is obssesed on him. Gosh.. But you know what? I believe he has a crush on me too. Because uhmn..well, its hard to explain but thats what I stand up for./..
Whew! I think I am falling gaain on somebody. And its okay with me, no regrets or remorse or doubts here..Just wanna go on with the flow. But there is one thing I put in my mind : I would only tell that the guy is "him" if ever he will be able to enable me to have an attraction to other guy. You know, obssession.
And I don' t think I have met him already but I am waiting..Just hope its later...
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Luv Yah!
I was so excited. We just have to plan and celebrate my sisters birthdays but of course that is until next week. I want to please them. I wanted so much to make them happy, so thats it. Justthen, I recognized how much I love them. So much.
Saturday, January 19, 2008
So Tired of Waiting
Just by the nearing end of this week, I was trying to prepare a small gathering for my younger sisters' birthday. Naturally, I have to go home this weekend so that I we can celebrate. I have to ask a penny to my father because maman didn't gave me any. You know, crisis and the money she sent went short. But I understand it. Now, my father promised to send a penny or two to me, and I waited. And I have been waiting this whole day to, yesterday and the other day. Well, my patience really stuck me out and I think I really do not have any of it and I almost have an attack because that disgusting elfin friend of my Aunt lied to me that she didn't saw my Aunt's cellular but it turns out that she only hid it! So disgusting.
I really wanted to wring her neck but as promised, I behaved like an angel. So I just waited for my father's text patiently.
And then it came. So, I rushed to the mall, hoping to bag some groceries to find out that the department store is full! Gosh. If only you can see it. I am the 13th liner in one counter, imagine that! So i have to wait for maybe an hour or so after I have been able to go out to the mall.
See, I have no patiens, or do I have a little? I dunno..
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Talent Show
It is not so big deal anyway, if only it doesn't affect our grade and we just don't have to perform it in front of everybody in class. Well, not that..oh, whatever. I think I am out of reason now.
The point is, I believe that I do ot have any talent to boot. I mean, I sing, but I am only a shower singer. I dance, but not that hiphop and I do not dance that well, and I am just a secret, aspiring, future choreographer. Huhuhu. Besides, I do not also have that enough guts to present an oration r declamation in front of everybody because lately this days, I am begining to lack self-confidence.
Okay, okay okay. Not that I do not have any talent. Point is, yes, I have this talent but it isn't showy. I have a talent in the field of writing, I believe that. But how can I show that.
Besides, I am not that good enough to boot it. And I wanted to perform something unusual. Oh, whatever. Just say good luck to me. Huhuh.
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Set, Go!
Well, just this Tuesday this week, I think, or ahuh! its Thursday, anyway. I have my horoscope read by my friend. Here it goes: "A new love will bloom. Watch out for you career because thi time, you will get what you wanted, if only you work hard." That is it. Well, I think it is right but jnt in the sense that a new love will bloom in me.
Thing is, Geoff's horoscope was read. It is really nothing for me, I promise, I do not have any feelings for him anymore, but they sill kept teasing me on him. This is his scope. "You will regret the time you waste you time for the person you love because you know that he/she was not telling you anything and you better ask him/ her yourself. Do it right now." Well, thats just it, but..they kept teasing me about it. As if I really care. Whatever I can just do nothing but roll my eyes.
I am currently preparing for my examination for tomorow so I better go because I haven't studied too good yet. Bye bye.
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
While I'm Away for The Christmas Season
Second day...well, SOMEONE arrived that soured my mood. You know, the blacklisted Greta. Just because of her mere prescence! Hah! What is more to it, she woremy clothes without my permission! Grrr... Hate her for that. I really hate her. She i so ODIOUS for me now.
And then the worst day. Yet for me. Such a damnation, although I don't really wanna curse. But I did it again. I hate everyone! Shit on them. They were too dunce to understand me to get what I'm feeling and they were too thick to get the depths of what I am feeling. Hmn...I don't know, maybe I am just really crazy. Haha! I accept that. Well, for all I care. I know myself that much and I accept it because I know it is the strongest thing I will be having in my present and in my future. The thing is, they do no try to accept 'me' and they were being obnoxious towards me.
It only made me far from them. Its because no one really tried to understand me, and that time, I don't even understand them either. I know the problem is with me, but I cannot accept it totally because I am not only responsible for my actions myself, because I am dong everything for a cause, and a reasonable cause.
So, that time, I told myself-or my cousin Greta, rather- that one more attempt to touch my things by her and I will pluck all her hair- I do not care! As if like it even from the start.
After Christmas, we were supposed to go to my father's hometown. Well, my sisters and I went there all alone and I am so proud because we arrived there safely and to think that the last time I set foot there was 7 years ago!
Okay, so we went there and saw some of my cousins and I love them! But I didn't really, you know, let out of my wild side there.. Oh, whatever.
Thats it. But at Christmas, at least, I have apologised to my grandpapa, or I just thought so but I know that he had already forgiven me so theres no burden in me now. Babye.
Happy New Year
Anyway, happy new year! Such a great season. And I have many things to tell you but let me say hat until next post, okay? Keep in touch. Once again,