Hello!!!

I am so very sorry that for the past few days (especially the last post I made) I made my blog so..neglected. No, I don't want it to be, okay? So..Here I am, sincerely taking things seriously for my only one best friend in the world- my blog.

Okay, so? What is happening to me now? Well, I just realized that I was not born with luck (OH!), but I was born with God's guidance and blessings. Yeah, you heard it right. Luck is just an assisting..assistant? Hahaha. Well, yeah, anyway, it is true.I realized that this morning. Anyway, I have so lots to tell I do not know if I will be able to make it from the very start to the very end in a very neat way.

Okay. First, my Mother came back home now for graduation. You see, the last time she was here in France, we have had a fight. Yes, the last day she ought to be staying here. So..uhmn.,..I want to make amends. So, naturally, I acted as the good daughter. Of course, it was never really easy, seeing as I was at ease on being just with myself, no one to scold me and notice things that I do. In short, I was once free. But uh-oh, never mind. I tried hard enough. So right now..there were no any..uhmn..break-outs. Thats lucky.

So..I also saw the movie..uhmn..Freaky Friday. I realy love it. Love that movie. And you know what? I want that thing to happen to me too so that my Mum will be able to understand me better on why we are so..different.

Okay. Now, also our graduation. It is nearing and i have turned to become afraid pf the future. You know what? I have also doubts on attending this school, so faraway from home, but I want it too at the same time. Well, duh.. WHy won't I just give it a try anyway? Right?

Mwah!

And She Is Back!

My mother is home! Mymother is home. And I cannot believe it.Its because I missed her so much.

And my sisters also graduated in elementary level. I am so happy for them. The youngest is valedictorian and the other one is with merits. I am so happy, happy happy. During the speech, my sister cried, and mother was not there yet because her flight has been delayed. Poor baby... Hehehehe

So, my Mere was thereby afternoon because my sisters' graduation was morning.

And the best part: I got mynew cellphone. A Nokia N72. Yehey!! JEjejejeje

Angry, oh so Angry

Yes, right now THIS VERY MOMENT, I am so angry because someone asked for my thing but didn't returned it to me in duie time. Right now, my MP4 is in my classmates house, and I don't know if that classmate of mine has plans to keep her word that she will return it by morning. Or midday.

I really have to go home, to my country home now because tomorrow is my sisters' graduation and I am their escort. And I have to go home..NOW!

Anyway, what is my point is that, I am proud of myself this day. You know why? Because even if I am very angry that I wanted to whack the things around, I didn't. I learned to control myself now. And I didn't cursed. Yes, I swear and now I love myself!

Take note: I love myself even before but I love myself more now.

Canot Believe It

Just a while ago, just a while ago.

I cannot really believe it!!!

Just a while ago, as I was going here in the internet cafe, I met Archie. Oh, he was still ever handsome, only that he has gone fat, but all the same, the same guy I have loved for many years.

Gosh....!

Oh, you might say it is just an infatuation, or obsession. Maybe it is but I will still likely to call it a puppy love because puppy love has a deeper meaning.

I have been inlove with him since first year hgh school, and now.. I don't know maybe its gone. I was just surprised to see him again. And I can still remember those moments we have. Of courtse, we have never been "officialy on" but we have some kind of mutual understanding. And oh, I don't know but everytime I see him I will always be taken up by surprise. Like.. I have just seen Prince William. Hahahaha!

For What Is Yours

I believe that what is really set out for you will be yours. And that will only happen if it is for you and only YOU. Because no matter what your system is in getting it, it won't work as long as it is not for you. That is how destiny works, too.

Oh, they are all interconnected. Its just like..how could you get this thing if you are not destined to it? Whatever. Take for example this girl that is deaf, and can only understand you through lip-reading. She is pretty, and also smart. She joined a beauty pageant. It was just like...perfect. Then came the question and answer portion. Her answer was very sure and she was confident and just like a normal person but here comes the buzzer that cannot be lip-read, and so, she went overdue of the time, and was only made as first runner-up. What a pity. She could have just won, had she only heard the buzzer. And the judges cannot make considerations just because she is deaf, because it was not a beauty pageant for deaf. So, she just contented herself the red ribbon.

If you have seen Ice Princess, it was also a pity, because she has the talent, and a very good performance and was only mistaken just because her mother didn't arrived to watch her perform. So, she setted for the silver cup, the judges didn't made considerations.

Why I am writing this? Well, I just felt of kinda, sharing to you what life is all about. Because I noticed that there were people who likes the phrase, "By hook or by crook" which is not very good. Because it is like, implying that you must get the thing that you must not have. It is bad because it is not right. So, I just wanted to advice you readers even though you are not asking for one that you should wait on things, you must not force the things to come to you because if it is for you, then it will be, but you must also work a little but not that much.

Got it?

I hope you did because it is a sensible topic for me, and I hope you really do get it, just to eliminate villain people in the world who get things not for them their own way.

Just A Duchess

In my latest blog, I talked about being a princess for being the third-in-line for the throne. So, that means that I still belong to a princess' circle. Huhuhuhu. I am now only a duchess.

Well, as our consistent top one our batch was unsatisfied when she took the salutatorian place the final markings, all the grades were again calculated up and then...here is the result.

So, now, I am not the first hnrable mention, just the second honorable mention, and our former valedictorian is now a salutatorian. And me? Switched with the first honorable now.

Oh, I have never felt offense about it because all from the start, I knwo its coming, so that is just it, and I cannot do anything about it.

Uh-oh. I have a very busy days to come this end of the month and beginning of the next month. Kudo.. As if I care. I know I can manage it.

First Honorable Mention

Its like, you know, a king, then queen, prince and princesses. Or maybe, in-line for throne. Soemthing like that. And if it is something royalty, maybe I am the princess, because I am the third-in-line for throne (Or second, if the valedictorian is not counted). I felt so much happy that I was able to be the 1st hHonorable Mention of our class Batch 2007-2008. Boy! Was I so happy about it.

I was nervous when our teachers told us that the announcement of honors will begin because I was doubting whether I would be able to make it or not,but of course, I have alreday told myself that no matter what happened, I will think of myself as the best.

So? Yes, I maybe just a First Honorable Mention Graduate and you might not think that of me as the best, but so what? At least, I believe in myself that I am one of the best. Its ot on what you have achieved lately, anyway, but on what you believe in and how you act too.

Who Is? (I have already decided)

Last night, it was one of my friend's birthday. He is a boy, actually, and the Setter in our class. Well, lets call him Setter. Okay, so he invited the whole volleyball team in our class, and four girls only- which was comprised of me, my two friends and another one who is the girl friend of Giant. We have fun. Really. And you should have seen their house, it is soooo big, mansion-like, but not that much. And I like their house's architecture. So regal, the kind of house I want for the future though mine is more elegant. Okay, okay. Back to our main topic, Setter's birthday. My friends and I were the early ones on his party, so there. We are the three roses among the many thorns. Thats after Giant's gf arrived. Him and her you know.

But before that, we chatted at his house, playing online games and etc etc. But then, after eating, one of our friends started saying we should play truth or truth (instead of truth or consequence). So, we played. Morty was there, and he evn took the next seat from mine, seeing that we were friends. We really were, and until now! Many people were asked and many questions were asked. All ahve answered the truth, I think. Okay..So, this. I have asked some questions, like, if I still loved Geoff. Of course, the answer was a very big NO! which is the truth.

The next question thrown to me was something..too personal. They asked me who in our batch I would have a crush then IF ever. I answered- rather hesitantly- Morty. Gosh!!! And to think he was sitting next to me! Can you just imagine it...

Then, they asked him if ever there will be a chance he would court me. Know what was his answer? He will, if he had no girlfriend. But of course, I just thought he was just polite or something...

Just this day, I was asked my Jewel if who should I choose: Morty or Geoff? It didn't took me enough time to answer because as the words were forming out of his mouth, I already knew the answer. I'll choose Morty. Not that because he was more handsome, but because I was already pissed off by Geoff and enough is ENOUGH!

Coming nearer...

The beginning of an end.

I like this sentence. Its just like, I am beginning an end by ending another chapter of my life, and strating something new. Like, its Chapter Three now, huller? Just like that. Gosh, I am so excited...! But then, I think I have to feel fear because almost everyone in our batch felt that thing. But the thing is, I didn't feel any fear that I am going toi a very far away university, as long as my college life is secured.

Oh. And I just remembered Mother, my Maman. She is coming back! Because she wants to attend our graduation. My sisters were graduating ( the two of them) from primary school, and I, in high school. I mean, gosh. I am not getting any younger but older and so, I have to be matured.

Right now, I know the responsibility as the elder sister and what it is to me. I love my parents. I love Mama and Papa. I love my sisters. And I don't want them to suffer, so, I will do all the best I can to maintain my grtades and to graduate in college to, to face my real life. Oh, gosh. This is it!~ Another sign of maturity. Hahahay!

Got It!

I was so very glad. I made one of my consequence put to test.

I was very impatient with my university results, it took so long. So, naturally, I put one of my antics- another consequence. I told my friend and myself that if the letter would not come this week- and that is, until Friday- I would not proceed to study in that university. But if it will, then I'll be able to know on what to do.

And the letter came by Tuesday. Our principal brought it herself, saying that she have good news for me and my friend who took also the exam. Our principal gave the result to me and I was so shocked to see that there was a written "scholar" there. I really gaped, and the thought that I didn't even sat on my chair. Our principal was amused with my reaction. But who wouldn't? I got a scholarship- no fees for everything.

Gosh. Was I so glad. And I really thanked God for it. Because he gave me blessings that is so very very important to me. Lord God, I thank you very much. You really are the best(which I know before).

Infatuated Again

Uhmn...Can't say that again. But I wanted to. See, I have fall for many times and hurt too. I have been obssesed for many times, and been hurted which is so bad that can give me trauma. But, theres this guy again, in the name of MAc. He is new in our dormitory. And I have just actually met him maybe..uhmn, just this year. January, I mean.

I believe that MAc is the man most suitable for me. He was nearly perfect for my dream and perfect man. Look at this: he is handsome, no not that handsome, but good-looking. He is also smart. I really like him. He doesn't smoke, and he doesn't even drink even a teeny little bit of alcohol. And MAc is just so charming!My ideal man.He is a loyalist, too. I mean, he doesn't want to cheat in his gf whenever he has one.

But there is one thing I might not seem to like in him. He is very fond of pretty girls. Huhuhuhu. But that, I think, is just his only flaw I don't like. yes, he cuss, but thats okay. His fond for pretty girls was the only problem.

One day, I went to the dormitory late. I was just so..uhmn..tickled and happy about what he does. He was on the dormitory door, talking to someone else, when he saw me. He pinched my arm and called me, "Happy.." Oh, man! Was I so glad!

This is the only thing i can say.I don't like him that much to the point that I am obssesed. But, the more that i got to know him, the more I like him. He is my perfect man I am looking for long.

The Recollection Day

Many said that the recollection day will make you cry. Many said that many students have gone emotional in that day, especially if you will listen well and out everything into your heart..

First things first in the morning, I was doubting whether what should I act whenever the reconciliation time will come. Of course, everyone knows about the fight we have (my so-called best friends) and many have attempted to push us to be friends again. But, as the "me", I didn't put up to reconciliate with them and that bothers me and what to do at the reconciliation day.

So, there. I reconciliate with someone. Well, i apologized to the one who irritated me most, the one who called me "best". I ask for forgiveness. Then, I just don't know it, Dude and the others were coming to me, crying and saying sorry. Well, I acted without a plan, I did go on with the flow. I accepted what they have been offering to me.

Then, they talked to me after the reconciliation. There, we were enlightened, and understood each other that we just misunderstood each other. In an instant, like nothing happened, we were back to being friends again, where in fact, it took us four months to go on the cold war of ours.

So, there. Just in one zap we were friends again. But, we also got many teasing from our classmatyes and the others. Maybe they were really happy too that at last, we were reunited after four months. They have been trying us to make amends with no avail and maybe that was a 'time' for them.

I am so very happy.

P.E. Day

Morning. I am so so so so...bad. I felt lousy and I felt super-badly. HUhuhuhuhu. Because our P.E day's firat event was the volleyball. I hope you know guys how to play volleyball and at least you know almost all of the sports so that you won't feel lousy and loser just in case.

I played volleyball for the morning event. Of course, I cannot say that I am so good at it, because I am more comfortable with home rooms. Well, our team, the senior team, was competing against the Juniors. They were our target enemy, something like that. But then, we lost against them. Our batch was not that sporty and even though our boys really love volleyball, and we also know about its rules, we never came to like it that much. So there, we lost for the women's division but at least, the boys winned alright.

The only thing that made me felt so troubled was that, the last score of the opposing team was made by me.Its like..I wasn't able to get back the ball to the other side of the court. And because of that, I blew our chances.

Although my friends didn't blame me because all of us were to be blamed, I still felt bad. And most of us girls swore a revenge by afternoon's activity.

I joined the tug-of-war. Huh! And as if, we really were serious that time. We really mopped the Juniors on the floor! Tchah! Poor babies!!

So, by the afternoon, we have compensated enough scores to be on edge with the others. I may be a little bit devilish this time by swearing revenge against them, but hey- its competition. Whats the truth is, we truly ROCKS!

Semi-finals Finished

I felt really bad. But not that bad- snap! But still, I felt bad. Whatever. I mean, its just that our professor included business math in our mathematics exam which I was so very bad at. Yes, I am so good in algebra and trigonometry but not business math, for goodness sake! So, thats it. The last part of our exam is about business math and I blew it off because i forgot the latest procedure. Huhuhuhu.

Well, I felt a little okay now ut not that okay. Duh...So what? As long as I'll be out of high scool then that would be fine for me.

And oh-there's this other thing that is a bit bugging my mind. I mean, its still part of our graduation rites, traditional you know. The recollection. it would be on Friday and I am not eager about it. But others were eager because they said that its time that our friendship reunites again. Sorry but no, I don't think so. Dhhhhh..

Lost O'Lost

List of what I have lost for this week:

1. My RRJ Pants
2. My Titus Ballpen color black
3. A Pocketbook I borrowed
4. My Calculator, precious, oh'so precious calculator

See, I have been some kind of a clumsy, forgetful girl this week. I have lost those important things just for ONE week. Gosh. This RRJ pants, I know mother would kill me if she will find out that I have lost it. It cost that much, you know. And this Titus ballpen, I believe that it is one of the factors of my lucky charm, and now its gone. I cannot believe and I cannot figure out how I lost it. And so are the pocketbooks. But I guess its in the care of one of my friends. Oh, I hope so. And the last one, the most important of all, my caluclator. I really cried and panicked when I learned that it was gone. Luckily, someone just borrowed it from me without my permission. But at least.

Sigh. I promise I would take good care of my things again that no one will be able to touch.

At Last!

I don't want to say much. But I am very much happy to announce this: at last, I have found a new idea for my upcoming book. At last at last.. I have been dreaming of this book for two years. Two summers ago. And this time, I found some ideas that were relevant and good. I cannot tell you about the characters though, not that I am afraid of someone plagiarizing it, as if it has to be plagiarized. No. I just won't tell for some other reasons. But I am just so very very happy that I found this idea.

I just hope that next time I browse my search engine, those words I have put in it will appear.

Wish me luck.

Journal?!

Our teacher wants a journal, our everyday experiences made for her to read! Can't you believe that?! Well, yes, I know that this will come to our subject, but I just can't believe that it is true. Gosh! What am I supposed to do now? I mean, I don't want others to read my thoughts, my everyday experiences. And as a writer, I should know better if I have to tell the truth in what I will write, because that what are the writers for. I mean, yes, we write fiction, but when it has to say a journal, it means that it is your day-to-day account. Yours, and nobody else. So, out, out. Lets make the "making up" thing out of the line. But what shall I do?

Uhmn...I am running out of ideas. Why don't you help me? As if someone's reading this, hahahaha. Well, I think I am making fun of myself, but its okay. Kudos here. What does kudo mean anyway? Whatever. Oh, our exam is coming this Monday, and I have studied a little. I just hope that my exams will go well. PLease, I hope so, oh dear God.

Uhmn...About this dormitory thing. I have been not staying in my own room now for almost three weeks, I believe. I didn't even slept there anymore. Well, I don't want to blame my aunt and my cousin, but they were the reason anyway. I don't want to talk about them. But remembering what I did a while ago, I have to talk about it.

Yes, I am not sleeping there, but my things were still there. I have been sleeping in another friend's room. SHe is okay with it. But my things were left in that room. Thing is, thery locked the room, and I wanted to take a bath. So, I destroyed the lock. Hehehe. Well, I know they were angry about it, but for all I care. Its their fault anyway that they didn't gave me the key first. I don't know if they really wanted to do it- to not to inform me. But anyway, I am not that evil, I am planning to mend what I have broken. Hehehe.

Exam. Semi-finals. At last. I can feel the scent of graduation. Well well well. So what now? I think I have to study now. Bye!